Nearly 2 nites i can't sleep. don't knw y. nak kata aku rindu kt isam, dating dh tadi. hurm... byk sgt yg aku pikirkan agaknya.. especially tringatkan my lovely parents @ hometown. nothin' to hide, nothin' to lose... nothin' to afraid of, i'm gonna go through it.. just keep the faith.
wat kinda story tonite? last CNY holidays, back hometown. Meet parents n naughty nephews - bought them story books. At least daddy could eat somethin tengok anak2nya balik. it was so greatful when saw kaki dad semakin baik sedikit rather than first day i saw his feet, damn terrible! isam pun tk sanggup tgk pic kaki dad..huhu. ada jgk usaha sana sini like i went to sumwhere in Benut or Batu Pahat, [lupa plak..] dgn adik cari ubat cuci n minyak utk pesakit luka teruk. hampa..sbb ubat2 tu anak arwah org yg pandai buat ubat tu tk teruskan. Luckily ada geng kt clinic dialysis yg sudi beri sket utk dad. usaha lain, jmpa ustaz.. mr nice guy, young age 37. i'm not dat kind of people yg sgt percaya, but i still smell something fishy, cuma ada jgk gertak berhemah..hehe.. dgn dia. Nway, kita cuba berusaha, Allah yg menentukan segala2nya. Sempat plak mak ngah ask me utk permudahkan jodoh me.. [sounds kelakar, but.. ikut je la]. ustaz tu pandai jgk menilik, but not all true. ada jgk terbabas.. i jst smile n asking here n there. biasala.. dgn slamber n keceluparan aku ni. Balik jmpa ustaz tu kena mandi la pulak dgn air jampi dia, smpai la ni.. aku minum jgk. nk kata trpaksa, ada la 20%. lain2 tu, aku serah pd Allah atas keikhlasan org utk mbantu, yea dak? wateverla... as long as mak ngah n my mom happy.
nmpaknya lately ni, ada byk perubahan dgn kekasihku itu...hehe. Sangat bagus! i must keep on threaten on him! bknnya apa, kasi ajar sket. at least i knew dat he really love n appreaciate me, even bukan secara terang2 tapi bersuluh. biasala.. chenta org tua ni, not slapstik or plastik but truly from heart n yg penting - IKHLAS. bersungguh isam nk hantar aku masa balik ke JB last thursday, sanggup tunggu 15 min b4 5pm kt parking ofis. kelam kabut jgk aku settlekan keje n trpaksa bwk laptop nk siapkan slide presentation for meeting esok di skudai. and.. isam masih menunggu dgn sabar.. Surprisely, when i enter his car, dia cepat2 ke booth keta then gave me sweet red rose, n wish me 'this is for u dear, early happy valentine's day'. hurmm.. aku bknnya clbrate valentine's but ok la.. senyum trsengih2 mcm kera dpt bunga la aku.. wpun masa yg sangat singkat, he promised dat to meet me again after CNY holiday. Kt puduraya, sementara tunggu bas @ 7pm, sempat surf n on fb n belek lagi rose tu. mcm tk prcaya.. all these while, selama hampir 2 thn lebih.. dia bg aku bunga? sengih lagi..hehe. smpai penyek bunga tu aku bubuh dlm beg laptop angkut sana sini. As he promised me, we all kuar dating last nite. Shavy n hemsem as usual, he drive me to Coffee Bean Ampang, tmpt biasa kami lepak or tapau. Agak tegang jgk bila mana our order lambat smpai, smpai tersengih2 mamat mat salleh sblah kitaorg dgr isam komplen. dia nyer baran..hurmm..tk bleh angkat la. i just giving him honey stick, n buat lawak bodoh, baru dia gelak. Then we went to Shell Station sumwhere near Hang Tuah Monorel & Flat Samping, pick up his fren - omar. Almost 2 hours jgk la abiskan masa dgn dia. As usual, i like his ideas, opinion & advices about islam n everythings. Communication between us, great. We can share experiences n everythings esp family matters. Sikap keterbukaan, understanding n trust - makes our relationship better day by day. I love him n yes he loved me too. Masih lg berusaha, keep da faith. Kalau ada jodohnya.. tak ke mana. Our lovely special tags "togetherness we strive, happiness will b forever". Marah-marah sayang....
Perasaan ini setenang air di tasik kenyir.. ada kalanya berkocak bila diganggu.. sabarlah hati..
"lets us crawl... crawl.. back to love: part of lyric song by chris brown"
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