Holiday!!!!

i'll b on leave until... 4 January 2009. Happy Holiday guys!!!!
Holiday Plan:
a) Dating wit bf
b) Going to Sunway Lagoon @ Desa Waterpark wit uncle & aunties. Maybe: Port Dickson this wkend.
c) Shopping!! [IKEA.. i'm cumming!!]
d) Back hometown... meet da parents.

Happy New Year 2009!!

Selamat Tinggal.... 2008

Banyak kisah suka dan duka sepanjang tahun 2008. Ada perkara2 yg tetap aku akan kenang dan ingat sepanjang hayat (insyaAllah.. kalau Allah panjangkan umur & sihat tubuh badan, akal & fikiran). Tiada apa yg hendak dikesalkan sebab apa jugak perkara yg berlaku di tahun 2008 ini dijadikan pengajaran untuk tahun-tahun akan datang.
Di sebalik kejadian, ada rahmat & hidayah.. positively thinking. Usaha, tawakal & redha dengan rahmat Allah SWT. Banyak sgt kisah.... aku summary je la..

Kisah 1: aku & keje
awal tahun ni, aku bz dgn marketing. Seronok la dpt berjalan seminggu lebih kt Sarawak [Kuching, Serian, Sri Aman, Sibu, Miri]. Letih bila pertukaran big bos, nearly 5 months masing2 buat keputusan sendiri & alhamdulillah.. kerja tetap berjalan dengan lancar. Akhir Oktober 2008, dapat berita gembira bila x-boss jadi boss baru aku..hehe.. seronok banyak la sbb he already knew everythings about me n we could work together as a good team!! Even he's da BOSS, dia tetap gerek sey!!!hehe.. Tabik spring boss!!

Kisah 2: aku & cinta
tak ada apa yang menariknya kecuali.. aku mengenali lelaki2 yg baik, macho, gentleman, membosankan, sakit hati, bengap!, bangang pun ada. Hmm.. no offence to others, bercinta dengan lelaki ni samada cari penyakit @ penyakit tu datang sendiri. Most of them, makes my life merrier.. happier & lots of appreciation. Lelaki pertama: yg benar2 menambat hati >> E.Isam [perangainya serupa dgn my x-bf yg pertama bertahta di hati forever "USman". Everything's perfect!, tapi apakan daya.. jodoh tk sampai lagi kot? Lelaki ke2: Arun -- mr. good man & gentleman, aku tk yakin dengan tawarannya "will u marry me?" pertanyaan yg sungguh gembira tapi beri seribu pertanyaan. Tapi akhirnya aku bawa diri, malas nk layan hati & perasaan. Lelaki ke3: Mike -- we still good frens a.k.a teman tapi mesra. Thnks for b'day @ Christmas gift drling, Gucci parfume akhirnya aku dapat!! Lelaki ke4: Mr J -- i like..hehe [baru semlm dating kt ofis dia, melepak smpai ptg]. Kami serasi, dan cuba menghiburkan satu sama lain. Lelaki ke5: Azhar -- i'm still loving u... [we gonna b forever.. until end?? maybe]. Lain-lain yg namanya tidak tercatat dalam ni mungkin byk menyakitkan hati aku & lelaki bangang yg pernah aku kenal. Anway, i'm happy.. dengan kehadiran mereka yg penuh kasih sayang, tak pernah tipu.. selalunya ikhlas. Thnx guys!!!

Kisah 3: Aktiviti
Tahun 2008 aku byk berjalan la.. ke sana ke mari. Dapat menjejakkan kaki ke Kota Kinabalu & bumi Sarawak. Buat keje giler [balik dr Jhr terus ke Kuantan by bus, lepak..]. June 2008 aku beli kereta baru - yg comel tapi tetap vogue! Birthday bash @ ajak hse -- jmpa kawan2 lama, sambil beraya. Konvoi Hari Raya dengan cousins menjadi jugak, hmm..semuanya gara2 aku berkeras dgn plan yg aku buat sendiri..hehe. Tahun depan bleh paksa lagi diaorg join ni. Awal Disember sibuk dgn hantaran my cousin --Bro Fahmy, akhirnya..dia kawin jugak on 13 Dis. 2008. Yg bestnya tu kawin dgn junior me kt Uni dulu..huhu. betapa kecilnya Malaysia ni... Recently, aku sedang berusaha untuk membeli sebuah rumah.. itu perancangan awal, semoga tahun depan aku dpt memiliki rumah sendiri, insyaAllah.

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Aku sangat2 bersyukur.. kerana Allah masih memberi peluang untuk aku mengisi separuh kehidupan ni dengan perkara-perkara yg baik & menggembirakan. Semoga dijauhkan dari kegiatan yg tidak bermaruah & dosa-dosa kecil di masa-masa akan datang. Akan hadirnya kasih sayang sejati dari insan bernama lelaki??? kita tunggu dan lihat sajalah.
Selamat Tinggal 2008 dengan beribu kenangan manis & pahit.. akan ku kenang sepanjang zaman...

"ITS NOT HOW MUCH U DO, BUT HOW MUCH LOVE U PUT IN THE DOING"

FALL FOR YOU

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

[song by Secondhand Serenade]

CRUSH

About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to kno

Do you ever think
When your all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really
Just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away

Has it ever cross
Your mind
When were hangin'
Spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more
See it's a chance
We've gotta take
Cause I believe
That we can
Make this into
Something
That will last
Last forever
Forever

Do you ever think
When your all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really just
Aanother crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away

Why do I keep running
From the truth
All I ever think
About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to know

[song by David Archuleta - American Idol]

Matahariku [song by Agnes Monica]

Tertutup sudah pintu .. pintu hatiku
Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu
Kini kau pergi dari hidupku
Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau

Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
Takada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

Dengarlah matahariku suara tangisanku
Kubersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku
Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukan waktu

Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
Takada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

Gembirakah aku??

10 Zulhijjah 1429H~~ Aidiladha baru berlalu semalam. Umat islam di seluruh dunia berkumpul di Tanah Suci Mekah untuk menunaikan Rukun Islam ke - 5. Entah bila aku akan menjejakkan kaki ke sana? InsyaAllah.. dua @ tiga tahun lagi jika Allah beri kesempatan untuk aku hidup di dunia yg fana ini. Selama 3 hari ni kita sebagai umat islam boleh bertakbir & bertahmid. ini yg paling menggembirakan aku.. ntahlah, mmg suka sangat dgn takbir raya [almaklumla.. lahir awal subuh jam 3.17pagi Hari Raya Aidilfitri tahun 197..? rahsia..hehe] Aku bersyukur kerana Allah memberikan rezeki yg banyak bila ramai yg menghantar daging korban di rumah parents me. Dapatlah aku bawa balik ke KL 2 kilo..huhu.. banyak tu.. i just reached KL, arrived about 8.30pm n go straight to the office [ambil keta comelku.. aduh! rinduku padamu.. banget!]
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[kisah chenta] nothin' interesting happen lately in my life. its just isam sms n call me back. hmm.. aku serahkn kepada Allah atas hubungan ku dengan isam. Jikalau dia benar2 jodohku, maka kekalkan aku dan jalinkan hubungan yang berlandaskan islam bersamanya. [Setelah penat kita berusaha, bertawakal maka kita harus berserah kepada Allah SWT]

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allahhu... akbar.. allah..hu akbar.. allah.. hu akbar. La..ilahaillallah...huallah..hu akbar. allah..hu akbar wallilla..ilham...

Us Against the world

Us against the world
Against the world
Us against the world
Against the world

You and I, we've been at it so long
I still got the strongest fire
You and I, we still know how to talk
Know how to walk that wire

Sometimes I feel like
The world is against me
The sound of your voice, baby
That's what saves me
When we're together I feel so invincible

Cause it's us against the world
you n me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

Us against the world
Against the world

There'll be days
We'll be on different sides but
That doesn't last too long
We find ways to get it on track
And know how to turn back on

Sometimes I feel
I can't keep it together
Then you hold me close
And you make it better
When I'm with you
I can feel so unbreakable

Cause it's us against the world
Me and you against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

We're not gonna break
Cause we both still believe
We know what we've got
And we've got what we need alright
We're doing something right

Cause it's us against the world
you n me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall

Cause it's us against the world tonight

Us against the world
you n me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall

Us against the world
Yeah it's Us against the world, baby
Us against the world
Tonight

Us against the world
Against the world
Us against the world

[song by WESTLIFE]

Sorry seems to be a hardest words

What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there

What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word

What do I do to make you love me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I do when lightning strikes me
What have I got to do
What have I got to do
When sorry seems to be the hardest word

[song by ELTON JOHN]

i adore mi amore...

Who the Hell is Daniel Henney?

By Ada Tseng

This is an analysis of a really good-looking man named Daniel Henney and his potential to shatter preconceived notions of Asian American men in America.
On February 21st, 2008, Variety reported a new addition to the ever-growing X-Men Origins: Wolverine cast. With various versions of black-and-white chiseled glamour shots accompanying his name, Daniel Henney, 28, was set to portray Agent Zero, a super-powered secret agent who, along with Wolverine (Hugh Jackman), Sabertooth (Liev Schreiber) and Deadpool (Ryan Reynolds), is part of the Weapons X project in the X-Men prequel.The casting announcement's repost on MovieWeb.com elicited user comments from comic fanboys, who derided the overflow of characters in the film, debated whether Ryan Reynolds' Deadpool could handle a spinoff series, and generally heckled each other for no reason. Then came the winning question: "Who the hell is Daniel Henney??"They only needed to go to the next Google search result to find out. Just Jared, a celebrity gossip site likely frequented by the commercially-viable 18-34 female demographic, had also reposted the Daniel Henney/Agent Zero story. After a deluge of capital letters and emoticons, a "WAAAHHH!!!," and a "i might cry in the theatre from all this beauty," it was clear that this audience knew who Daniel Henney was. And if they didn't, they wanted to know.
Although Henney is a certified heartthrob in Korea and amongst worldwide Korean pop culture fans, he is still a relative newcomer to the entertainment industry, starting only three years ago in 2005. A 6'2" American from Michigan (father is British American, mother is Korean American), Henney hit the jackpot with his first role in the Korean drama My Name is Kim Sam-Soon. He played an English-speaking Korean American doctor, which was quite convenient because at that point his Korean-language skills were still rather shaky. Although Henney didn't play a leading role, the drama gave him extensive exposure -- an estimated 50% of Korean households tuned in for the series finale -- and quickly catapulted him to stardom. Advertisers flocked to him, wanting to capitalize on his newfound fame, and soon he was all over the place, selling everything from cell phones to beer to clothing to cars.
On a surface level, understanding Daniel Henney's appeal is kind of a no-brainer. He's strikingly good-looking. And, he appears to be kind -- so even better.
However, in the context of the Korean Wave, or hallyu, Daniel Henney may have represented something greater. According to Eun Mee Kim, a professor at Ewha Womans University in Korea who studies the global consumption of hallyu, there has been a yearning among Koreans to get a stamp of approval from the West through culture and the arts."The fact that [Daniel Henney] came to Korea to test the Korean market sent at least two messages," explains Lin. "One, that the Korean entertainment market is important enough for an aspiring young American actor; he had to learn Korean and Korean customs, which were not easy by any means, to come to Korea. And two, that Daniel Henney himself is a product of globalization -- bi-racial, multi-cultural, etc. Thus, Daniel Henney was more than other good-looking, gentle Korean male stars since he embodied the 'global' spirit in himself."
In mainstream America, the first glimmer of Daniel Henney came when he was shooting a European commercial with for Bean Pole casual wear with Gwyneth Paltrow. You might not have known who this guy was, but you believed that he had the power to make a statuesque blonde beauty blush. An Oscar-winning Hollywood actress who once had Brad Pitt, no less. After the commercials aired, JoongAng Daily reported that Bean Pole sales were up 28.1 percent from a year earlier (compared to an 8 percent year-on-year increase during the first half of the year).
Jung-sun Park, an Associate professor at California State Unversity, Dominguez Hills researching transnational flows of Korean/Asian pop culture, reflects that only seven to ten years ago, if a Korean American had tried to break into the Korean entertainment industry without being able to speak Korean, it would have been met with harsh criticism.She remembers Yunjin Kim -- the star of Shiri and Seven Days, more familiar to American audiences as Sun on ABC's hit show Lost -- when she began working in Korean dramas in the late '90s. Although Kim was born in South Korea, she had immigrated to the US at the age of 10, so in the beginning of her career, she was speaking Korean with a heavy American accent."Of course, she's had her ups and downs and has been successful," says Park, "but there was pressure on her to improve her Korean if she was serious about building her career in Korea." Henney's less-than-stellar Korean, on the other hand, was not part of the public criticism in the same way, Park points out. His scenes in My Name is Kim Sam-soon were subtitled, he did many of his television talk show interviews entirely in English, and if anything, his American-ness was part of his appeal.

Henney's mixed-blood heritage allowed him to carve out a little niche for himself in Korea. Around the same time, Dennis Oh was another example of a biracial Korean American model-turned-actor playing characters who mostly spoke English. This acceptance of "foreigners" in the Korean mainstream was definitely a reflection of the changing times. Recently, NFL star Hines Ward, who is half Korean and half African American, suddenly created sports fans out of Korean audiences who previously had no interest in football – and made society rethink their past discrimination against mixed-race children.But Daniel Henney's rise also came at a time when Korean youth culture was developing a keen fascination with outer appearances. While conservative traditions and Confucius values would consider such superficialities the antithesis of what was important in society, Park attributes this trend to the proliferation of cyberspace. Suddenly, the youth in Korea were obsessed with self-shots, loading up nicely-lit, well-angled, carefully Photoshop-ed pictures of themselves online and obsessing about how they looked. Cosmetic surgery was on the rise, evaluation of physical appearances became acceptable small talk, and it wasn't considered shameful to be shallow anymore. Park brings up the Korean slang that has permeated the mainstream vernacular, terms that zone in on specific degrees of physical beauty. Having a pretty face (ŏl-tchang/ulzzang), having a nice body (mom-tchang/momzzang), and the ability to look good in whatever clothes you are wearing were considered by youth to be smart investments for one's future success.
In this type of social atmosphere, someone like Daniel Henney was a snug fit. Acting prowess became secondary. Not to insinuate that he can't act -- it's currently debatable, although he did win three Best New Actor nods for his recent dramatic turn in Our Father -- but for the most part, audiences (mostly female) seemed perfectly content with his lighter fare, such as Spring Waltz and Seducing Mr. Perfect.
Which leads us to his current role as Agent Zero in X-men Origins: Wolverine. Although he's expressed interest in working in both the Korean and American entertainment industries in the past, this is the first Hollywood role he's accepted. While it's likely not a major role, it will be a high profile one. In the comics, Agent Zero is an intelligent, mysterious spy/mercenary and a skilled marksman who has the ability to absorb physical impact without getting harmed, including energy beams. It's rumored that the film is changing his character from East German to North Korean, albeit the only source for this so far seems to be Wikipedia.
In Asia, Henney's Western features might stand out, but internationally, it'll be interesting to see if he be categorized as Asian American, or if his ethnicity will be put on the backburner like a Keanu Reeves or a Mark-Paul Gosselaar.
In the US, the lack of Asian American male representation in media has long been a sore subject, mostly amongst Asian American men who are tired of alternately feeling emasculated and being portrayed as gangsters. With the possible exceptions of John Cho and Kal Penn, we're still itching for an Asian American leading man to break through. Henney's case brings up interesting potentials, because although he's already reached star status in Asia, he's not really "crossing over" to America. He's coming back.
While Korean pop culture fans may compare him to Rain, a more experienced Korean talent who is getting his own Hollywood love with back-to-back Wachowski brothers projects, Henney probably has more in common with other American-born talents who have made names for themselves in Asia. Daniel Wu, Wang Leehom, pre-scandal Edison Chen… most of whom haven't made any extensive efforts to act in Hollywood, but could easily step up to the task if offered a role that was worth it. But on the Hollywood silver screen -- where commercial appeal rules, ŏl-tchang and mom-tchang are prerequisites, and multiculturalism might have its limits -- there's something about the non-accented-English speaking, tall-built-and-handsome, half-Caucasian Daniel Henney that might bring him more opportunities than your average Asian or Asian American male actor. It'll be interesting to see how this all unfolds...

Pasrah..

selama ni aku byk bercerita kisah cinta suka dan dukaku.. tapi hanya Tuhan saja yg tahu perasaan & hatiku sekarang. Adakah keputusan aku meninggalkan nya betul? Adakah aku terlalu tegas sangat menyakiti hatinya? Adakah aku terlalu zalim dengan keputusanku ini?

Byk persoalan yg keluar dlm kepala hotak aku beberapa ni... aku pasrah.

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i'm sorry isam.. i break ur heart.. deep inside, i'm still loving u, keep on thinking about u these few days. November 8, 2008 -- i made decision leaving u. its not because of others personal problems, its just me.. i don't wanna stay n being your girlfren forever. i need a guy to b my responsible, caring, loving HUSBAND. we discuss already on our final date last friday nite dat u don't wanna any commitment esp marriage for this time being. Focus on ur financial n business because u're employee on ur own company. i'm sorry, i can't wait longer until 2 @ 3 years. i don't wanna hurt myself, living in world full of lies n being hipocrite. i do love u, i'm happy wit u.. u're such a good man wit good heart, fulls of humour & understanding. as a single woman & eligible bachelorette, lots of eyes r looking at me. How long i wanna b like this? i'm not live until 30 @ 40 years more.. maybe i will die soon. At least i got a husband & babies. I deserve to be happy n living happily wit my own family. U have ur own vision & dreams, me too. i hope u understand drling.. its really hard to let u go, but... for our own sake.. i have to leave u now.. i'm sorry again..

Syawal kembali ceria..

Last wkend me & hsemte ada kesempatan untuk memasak (ala kadar je..) dan menjemput rakan2 trdekat untuk sama-sama hadir 'open house'. i cook nasi arab (kabsa) + ayam, bihun goreng & laksa sarawak. Kak bib pulak masak ketupat nasi & dendeng daging goreng. Ramai yg hadir menceriakan suasana. Dari jam 12.00 tengahri smpai la ke 12 tengahmalam baru tetamu balik. Mak itam & family, azie & family jugak dtg. Sempat la meraikan birthday auntie black aku tu..hehe. Sesekali suka kan hati org tua, dpt pahala yg banyak..huhu. Letih memasak hilang bila tengok semua org dtg menjamu selera. Laksa sarawak dapat pujian khas dr org srwk sendiri. Alhamdulillah, jika panjang umur & murah rezeki tahun depan buat lagi OH (Open House) di bln Syawal yg mulia ni.
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[kisah chenta] bosan dgn sikap isam yg pemarah. sesuka hati lebaran je nk maki2 aku lagi. malas nk layan. Kalau ada jodoh, insyaAllah.. kalau tk ada, bye2 la.

Hari Raya 2008 Celebration

I would like to wish u all "selamat hari raya" and "eid mubarak. Minal Aidil Wal faizin, maaf zahir & batin. This raya comes amidst great uncertainties and challenges. I believe it is during such times that we come to truely understand the spirit and joy of togetherness, giving, receiving and forgiving.
Few pictures taken during open house @ birthday bash on saturday, 4 october 2008 at parents house.

Apa yang dicari?

Recent activities:

Jumaat, 12 Sept. 2008: tghri tu pi ofis J n nk hantar artikel pasal keta lelong, but aku pun terjebak sama kena ikut dia pi amik bubur kat bangunan Amanah Raya. Hmm.. ntah apa agaknya staf2 dia teringin nk mkn. Sempat jgk jalan2 kt Jln TAR cuci mata n bual2 dgn J. (sorila.. dia tk pi solat Jumaat, aku dh paksa tapi... ). its been a while kitaorg tk jmpa, jadi kesempatan ni kami guna sebaiknya -- teman tapi mesra..heheh. Dh malas nk layan perasaan dgn dia ni, nnti aku jgk yg sakit ati. Balik dr ofis ptg tu terus ke Jln Medan Tuanku (ofis Mike). Dia dh janji nk buka puasa sama (dgn dia skali aku paksa berpuasa). i thought nk makan kat Cotton Club, Maju Junction tapi rupa-rupanya under renovation. So terpaksa la tukar tmpt - Kenny Roger's Roaster. Aku sempat tapau Tepanyaki (my favorite!) n slumber je bwk masuk dlm KR, depa pun tk sound pasal makanan luar aku bwk..hehe. After buka lepak jap kt ofis mike (bual2 mesra.. he's missing me much sbb sebln lebih aku busy, tk sempat dating) n hntr dia balik kt Kerinchi. Sementara menunggu Julia smpai tengah mlm dr Jb, me terus ke masjid jamek - solat terawih. Dok melepak kt tepi jln sblah Puduraya, cuci mata tgk perangai org balik kmpg n ulat2 jual tiket. Mcm bosan je.. sempat trtdo jap dlm keta..huhu.

Sabtu, 13 Sept. 2008: Julia ada class ptg so aku tunggu je la dia kt umah. Program utk dia, mlm tu ajak pi Jln TAR naik lrt. Punyala sesak kat area Masjid India..huhu.. sakit kpala aku dibuatnya dgn lautan manusia yg sibuk nk shopping raya. Dgn baju2 yg pelbagai harga & warna, kuih2 raya 5 paket RM20.00 (blum sempat hari raya, dh tk bleh makan). aku tkde beli apa2 pun, plan nk shopping lambat lagi.

Sunday, 14 Sept. 2008: Tghri tu ajak Julia pi Midvalley @ The Gardens since dia nk beli kasut raya. Tapi byk yg tk berkenan, katanya aku bwk dia pi tmpt2 yg mahal. Hmm.. no komen la. kalau nk yg murah, better pi Uptown @ Downtown. Kasut hrga RM10 pun bleh dapat..huhu. Tapi tkpela, biar dia jalan2 cuci mata kat Midvaley & T. Gardens, lagipun first time dia smpai sini. Dlm jam 3 lebih aku ajak dia pi Bangar Village. Before dat singgah kt masjid Saidina Abu Bakar, Bangsar n aku pun menunaikan tanggunjwb sbg seorg muslim - membayar zakat fitrah. Alhamdulillah... Kt Bangsar Village pun Julie tk berkenan nk shopping, katanya mahal jugak. Alamak... mana lagi aku nk bwk dia? cuaca yg cerah tiba2 mendung & ujan. Its nearly 4pm, nk tk nak aku trpaksa hantar dia terus ke Pudu (bas jam 6pm dr KL-Kulai). Sempat singgah kt Merdeka Square dlm 10 minit, Julia kemas brg2 kt bonet & transfer terus ke depan. Sempat snap few pictures kt sini. Dh bertahun2 aku tk melepak kt sini, so.. abadikanlah kenangan utk masa depan.

HIJRAH: Minda & Tasawwur

Hijrah berasal daripada perkataan bahasa Arab yang membawa maksud meninggalkan satu tempat untuk menuju ke tempat lain. Ada di kalangan ahli bahasa yang memberi erti hijrah adalah merangkumi hijrah jasmani dan hijrah rohani. Maksud hijrah jasmani ialah meninggalkan satu-satu tempat. Manakala hijrah rohani pula ialah meninggalkan satu-satu sikap, kepercayaan, akidah, emosi dan tasawur serta menggantikannya dengan yang lain.

a) Falsafah penghijrahan Rasulullah s.a.w dari Mekah ke Madinah adalah untuk memastikan perpindahan keyakinan, tasawur, akhlak dan sikap para sahabat r.a dari pengaruh jahiliyah kepada pengaruh wahyu dan fitrah, dapat berjalan dengan lancar tanpa sebarang gangguan.
b) Tugas manusia di dunia ini ialah menjalankan tugas dan tanggungjawab dengan sesempurna yang mungkin tanpa bersikap sambil lewa atau cuai. Ini kerana setiap tugas dan tanggungjawab yang ditunaikan akan dikira oleh Allah sebagai kebajikan sekalipun hasilnya tidak sempat dirasai oleh pelaku ataupun orang lain.
c) Nabi Muhammad S.A.W sentiasa ingin melihat manusia hidup sebagai hamba kepada Allah dan bukannya hamba kepada nafsu atau makhluk lain dan juga jauh dari tasawur atau keyakinan yang tidak menepati ajaran Islam yang sebenar. Ini kerana Islam datang dengan tujuan membebaskan manusia daripada penjajahan minda dan tasawur.

Blessing of Ramadan Mubarak

Lama tk tulis blog, malaskah aku? bukanlah.. tiada kesempatan utk menulis, jika ada masa senggang ni, barulah bleh mulakan.. dgn bismillahhirrahmannirrahim..
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alhamdulillah.. syukur, Allah memberi aku kesempatan untuk mengerjakan ibadah puasa bagi tahun ni. w/pun hari pertama hingga ke 3 aku tk bleh berpuasa, takpela.. aku redha. Hari ni insyaAllah, genap 10 hari berpuasa. Kesihatan yg ok w'pun mlm semlm kaki kanan cramp masa solat terawih n semlm aku berehat kt umah spjg hari - baring je.. Sempena menyahut saranan supaya kempen berjimat cermat (even me dr dulu mmg suka masak kt umah bila berbuka) maka me n hsemte buat keputusan utk memasak bagi menyediakan hidangan berbuka puasa. Banyak menu baru yg dh kami cuba. Dari masakan ala2 thai smpai la ke tanah arab..hehe. Yg penting dipelbagaikan jadi masakan ala2 malaysia. Menu yg paling best skali: ayam ala2 arab, ikan siakap tiga rasa, telur bistik, ikan tongkol (aya - lauk utk nasi dagang), kuih sagu gula merah & bubur sum-sum. First time buat menu tu, smuanya menjadi..huhhu.. Yg penting, kami smua tk cerewet. makan je la apa yg ada. Hmm.. apa menu hari ni eh? (masih lagi blom dpt jawapan...mungkin ayam masak asam pedas kot.
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Bahagiakah aku? alhamdulillah.. kasih sayang me & isam semakin erat. Even dia busy prepare byk menda utk kehadiran ibunya ke m'sia (selalu dtg temankannya sepanjang ramadan n until aidiladha) seminggu sblum puasa tapi dia masih sempat luangkan masa dgn me. Dia langsung tk stuju bila me kata sepanjang Ramadan kita tk payah jmpa, bykkan ibadah, jauhkan dr segala maksiat..hehe. Mula2 ok je, but rindu punya pasal... last nite dia mai jugak jmpa me (20 minit) je..huhu. N he's plan buka puasa dgn me dlm waktu terdekat ni, ada chance tu pun bila bawa mak dia brbuka puasa dgn kawannya (nearby my hse). apa2 je la.. aku layankan je. Kadang2 tu bukannya kita nk jual mahal, tapi biar dia jugak bersungguh2, baru la adil. Taklah kita rasa macam terhegeh2 je kat dia. Our plan - shopping Hari Raya on 25 September nanti (mlm sblum flight balik ke JB).
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Lain2 cite takde, cuma byk invitation dr kwn2 utk buka puasa sama. Sorila.. bukan taknak. Tapi langkah jimat cermat & duit yg ada pun dh reserve utk road tax keta..hehe. Unless bfren2 yg sudi nk blanja buka puasa, aku pegi je la. This friday nite, buka puasa dgn mike. Then amik Julz kt Pudu, saturday maybe dgn erin & shidah kot.. nk tengok gambar2 wedding dia..huhu.. mesti best!

LOVE in this Club [Usher]

Gotta do it for the ladies.
And I gotta keep it hood.
Where we at Polo? "Ay"
I see you Ryan
What you do was right
But we just getting started. Yeaaaa Man.

You see you searching for somebody that'll
take you out and do you right.
Well come here baby and let daddy
show you what it feel like.
You know all you gotta do is
tell me what your sippin' on.
And I promise that ima keep it commin' all night long.

Lookin' in your eyes,
While you walk the other side,
(and I think that shawty I've got a thing for you)
Doin' it on purpose, winding and workin' it.
I can tell by the way you lookin' at me girl.

I wanna make love in this club.
In this club
In this club
In this club
I wanna make love in this club.
In this club
In this club
In this club

Listen, you got some friends rollin' wit you baby then that's cool.
You can leave them with my nigga's, let
em know that I got you.
If you didn't know, you're
the only thing thats on my mind.
Cuz, the way I'm starrin miss you got me
wantin' to give it to you all night.

Lookin' in your eyes while you walk the other side
I can't take it no more, baby I'm commin for you
You keep doin' it on purpose winding and working it.
If we close our eyes it could be just me and you.

[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/wGbN ]
I wanna make love in this club.
In this club
In this club
In this club
I wanna make love in this club.
In this club
In this club
In this club [ repeat x2 ]

[ Young Jeezy ]
(Well, you know we always rollin', I'm on em)
Yea, Lets go
I'm what you want, I'm what you need.
He got you traped, I'll set you free,
Sexually, mentally, physically, emotionally,
I'll be like your medicine, you'll take every dose of me.
It's goin down on isle 3, i'll bag you like some groceries.
And everytime you think about it, you
gon' want some more of me.
About to hit the club make a movie yea
rated R. Pulled up like a Trap Star,
that's if you had yo regular car.
You ever made love to a thug in the
club with his ice on, 87 jeans and a
fresh pair of
Nike's on. On the couch, on the table,
on the bar, on the floor.
You meet me in the bathroom, yea
you know I'm trained to go.

You might as well give me a kiss, If we
keep touching like this
I know you scared, baby they
don't know what we doing.
let's both get undressed right here,
Keep it up girl and
I swear
I'ma give it to you non-stop
And I don't care who's watchin
watchin, watchin (watchin, watchin)
oohh, in this club, on the floor
Baby lets make love

I wanna make love in this club.
In this club
In this club
In this club
I wanna make love in this club.
In this club
In this club
In this club

yea...

Cover Magazine

amacam? gerek tak? sesekali glamor apa salahnya... wakakak.. (perasan). Picture taken by erin masa tunggu mak andam pasang pelamin kat dewan. Nmpak mcm cun je hfon sony ericson ni.. tapi aku tetap setia dengan motorola..huhu. selagi tk rosak & boleh berfungsi, akan ku gunakan sebaik mungkin L7 ni. tengah menunggu2 kot2 xbf nk hantar hfon baru kt me frm s'pore.. syioknya!!! hanya dia je yg slalu sponsor hfon dari tahun 2000 hingga la sekarang. thnx awak.. jasa & kenangan bersamamu sentiasa dalam ingatan. Kasih sayang berpanjangan w'pun kita jauh terpisah..

BREATHLESS

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we’d say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are

[Chorus]

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know how very special you are

[Chorus]

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You’re something special
I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you’ve given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

[Song by Shane Ward]

aku, dia dan... kereta comelku..

lama sudah tk tulis blog, busy ke? tak la sangat.. cuma kena tengok mood jugak bila nk brkarya ni.. cewah! wat happen lately???? huhu... banyak kisah babe~!

last wednesday (13 Ogos 2008) on da way to Stadium S.Alam (semi final bola sepak : Johor vs Selangor) kat federal hiway, keta comelku bontotnya dilanggar dari belakang... Peh! terkejut beruk aku dlm keta. bergegar 1 badan, hati byk sakit.. masa tu bukan aku pun yg bawak. si azroel.. tapi he's a good driver, lagipun waktu tu keta Perdana V6 depan me tiba2 brhenti mengejut! dlm kelajuan tahap biasa 60 km/j masih bleh control lagi la.. aku yg duduk blakang ni.. mmg panas hati! especially bila nampak 'call man' kuar dr keta myvi, depan Perdana V6 kitaorg. Mmg sial! keje diaorg la ni kt hiway, nk dpt duit! terus aku amik hfon, took pic bontot keta. then ckp dgn Azwar (owner keta yg sondol m0ntot keta me) "apa2 hal, kita settle kat balai. Keta azwar remuk teruk sbb sebuah hyundai di belakangnya la yg drive mcm org mabuk (sam @ chinese hot lady).

hmm.. khamis (14 Ogos 2008) bloomy sepanjang hari, tk tau nk buat apa. nk contact mana punya bengkel & insurance. last2 i send sms to isam "i need u badly", he called me suruh hantar kat bengkel yg biasa bikin keta wajanya di Kelana Jaya. Jam 5pm aku terus pecut ke Kelana Jaya jmpa Ah Chai. Dia janji settlekan smuanya.. aku pun balik ke rumah naik lrt..huhu.

Then mlm tu isam dtg jmpa me; full of caring & loving. Dia byk ceriakan hidup aku bila benar2 memerlukan seseorang. Even we just spent time only 1 hour, cukuplah berikan ketenangan.. Thnx drlin, i owe u so much! muahs!

Friday, i'm in love... but, ada lagi perkara2 yg tk diingini brlaku kat umah. aku sibuk membasuh seawal subuh jam 6am. Tiba2 salur air kt balcony dapur sudah trsumbat. maka penuhla air.. atas paras buku lali n masuk ke dapur.. sabar je la.. pam punya pam sampai sakit kaki & blakang (nearly 2 hours beb!) tapi tk surut2 jugak. aku turun pi mgmnt office, call sana sini. Then contractor technical datang. ini lah nasib penghuni apartment di tingkat 1, mcm hampeh!

Tghri tu aku berebut ke Puduraya, amik bus jam 1.30pm ke JB. Esok my pet-bro (Erin @ Kole) wedding!! mesti balik apa.. nanti mak bapak dia marah.. Smpai kmpg, rilex dulu. Lepas mgrib baru gerak ke umah erin, lepak dgn shidah kejap then pi dewan sri sayong tolong diaorg buat apa yg patut. Sambil tunggu mak andam dtg buat pelamin, sempat la berborak itu ini. Lewat pagi jam 3am balik umah parents.

Sabtu (16 Ogos 2008) reunion!! hampir keseluruhan best fren geng2 CS kt Uitm Jengka dtg. even hujan lebat kt luar, majlis persandingan adik aku tetap berjalan dengan lancar.. sedih jgk bila tgk dia dh kawin. bila pulak turn aku eh? soon! (perasan...hehe). geng2 CS yg hadir: chombi, tompel, jalie, pok cheq, lan @ condo & isteri (marni <<>

Sunday, i'm back to KL. Dalam keletihan majlis persandingan adik aku, sempat la tolong mom cleaning the house.

Monday, hooooooooraaaaaaaaay!!! gumbira rasanya hati bila lewat ptg dpt call dr Ah Chai "keta sudah siap, bila mau mari?" mmg bestla ko ah chai! thnx! i call azwar kasitau yg keta me dh siap n sempat jugak call sam. hmm..apa lagi.. semangat berkobar2 la nk amik keta kt Kelana Jaya. when i told Joe nk ke KJ, tiba2 dia nk ikut sekali. (Ops!.. i dh berbaik2 dgn Joey, itu pun puas dia pujuk ajak lunch @ karaoke at Ampang Park last week). Kami naik lrt la ke sana.. he's look tired n betul2 rindukan me...hehe. After sign all those insurance claim forms, joe check itu ini. Alhamdulillah.. i drive back to KL. Hntar joe ke Pavilion, ada appointment pasal business dia katanya then me pun terus balik umah belek keta jap..hehe. Nearly jam 11pm i rcvd sms from joe "u r luvly". sengal apa romeo ni? sakit rindu la tu kot.. rupa2nya balik dr Pavilion, dia sempat singgah kt Conlay - karaoke dgn kwn2 dia. 1 jam lepas tu dia call me, kata kat ofis pulak.. terbaring sbb sakit dada & kepala. Mcm2 la ko ni, saja nk manja2 n mintak simpati la tu. mmg dia demam, hmpir 2 minggu tk baik2. Sorryla, malas nk layan, cuma aku paksa dia balik umah jugak even dh tengah mlm. 5 minutes to 12.30am i call him, dia dh selamat smpai umah.

Byk pengajaran yg aku dpt bila accident ni:

a) Kasih sayang tanpa batasan, w'pun berbeza adat & budaya

b) i'll call 'Ah Chai' Bengkel KLM, Kelana Jaya (kalau xcident lagi.. nauzubillah!)

c) Kekecewaan, sympathy & empathy - buat aku lebih keras hati..huhu.

d) Sabar, yakin & tawakal kepada Allah

e) kawan menangis susah dicari, kawan ketawa.. hmm.. mmg la ramai!!

Gelap Tapi Terang

Hari2 yang gelap kini kembali ceria...
sangat tension semlm dgn prangai 'Mem Besar' kt ofis ni, smuanya nk cepat , kelam kabut. letih aku dibuatnya... tak pasal2 aku menangis mengenangkan nasib diri di rantauan. penat2 perah otak prepare document, bos yg dpt nama.. huh! tkpela.. demi mencari rezeki yg halal, aku ikhlas. cuma bengang la, dlm satu masa disuruh buat itu ini, tk menang tangan beb! last2 aku dok tercongok kat ofis sorang2 smpai jam 11 mlm. letih betul...

*malam tadi isra' & mikraj = 27 Rejab 1429H. teringat k.izan pesan Qiamullail, sempat jugak tgh mlm td solat taubat, ishtiharah & hajat. bila angkat tangan nk solat tasbih telefon berbunyi... terus kensel nk buat..hehe..[teruknya aku!] isam call.. ajak dating!

tunggu bagai nak rak, sedih aku.. dh la kita ni penat, tension, nk berehat.. terpaksa tunggu dia pulak. jadi ke tk nk kuar, hmm.. dh setengah jam baru call balik. hampeh je.. nearly 1am kuar ronda2, itu pun dia dh panic sbb aku dh nangis... [bukan mintak simpati n manja2, tapi tk tau la ari ni aku mmg sensitip sangat]. Actually we're both r really busy with our life, but masing2 cuba untuk luangkan masa antara satu sama lain. Sesi luahan perasaan dgn apa yg brlaku hari semlm. He's loving person, even letih..dia sudi mendengar & menasihat. Membebel tu.. mmg la, he's good in P.R. hmm... harap2 bahagia berpanjangan la.

hmm...sakitnya kepala aku ni, nk balik awal n berehatla.. letih semlm tak hilang lagi. aduh...