Wednesday, February 25, 2009

my lovely touchpro


inila yang aku idam2kan selama ini, inovasi paling canggih di ofis aku la..hik..hik .. hik.. [kalah bos yg pakai blackberry je]. akan ku jaga dengan baik n sepenuh jiwa dan ragaku.. sayang wo... Pls jgn tanya harga, aku pejam mata je beli ni. Yg penting.. aku sgt suka!! yehaa.... muahs! muahs!

I'm Alive

Mmmmm, Mmmmmmmmmmmm
I get wings to fly
Oh, oh, I'm alive... Yeah

When you call on me
When I hear you breathe
I get wings to fly
I feel that I’m alive

When you look at me
I can touch the sky
I know that I’m alive
Mmmmm Ohhhhh

When you bless the day
I just drift away
All my worries die
I’m glad that I’m alive

You’ve set my heart on fire
Filled me with love
Made me a woman
On clouds above

I couldn’t get much higher
My spirit takes flight
Cause I am alive
OHHHHH

(When you call on me)
When you call on me
(When I hear you breathe)
When I hear you breathe
(I get wings to fly)
Fly
I feel that I’m alive
I am alive

(When you reach for me)
When you reach for me
(Raising spirits high)
God knows that

That I’ll be the one
Standing by

Through good and
Through trying times

And it’s only begun
I can’t wait for the
Rest of my life..

[song by Celine Dion]

Ketenangan mengusik jiwa

current issue:

its my dad birthday today!!! happy birthday daddy... doa & harapan smoga sihat selalu, bersabar menghadapi sakit yg dihadapi, sabar dgn karenah anak2 yg nakal...(aku la tu..huhu). Hmm.. tgh pikir ni, nk belikan dad hadiah apa tahun ni..

Last thursday nite, me n hsemte pi tgk film "Geng >> Upin & Ipin: Pengembaraan bermula". Mmg best giler sey!! kepada semua.. 'tengok, tengok, tengok' heheee.. [ala ipin] konpem melepasi sasaran 4 juta film ni, box office in malaysia early 2009. This wkend balik kmpg, nk ajak nephews pi tengok plak..huhu..poyo!

bosannya kt ofis, dari tadi dok melangut!! ngantuk plak bila pekena nasi n lauk kt mamak kopitiam td. layan lagu lagi baek...

kisah chenta:

so don't try to say u're sorry
or try to make it right
don't waste ur breathe coz its too late, too late..
You can tell me that there's nobody else (but i feel it)
You can tell me that you're home by yourself (But I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know...I know...Your love is just a lie [ song by Simple Plan]
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kadang2 bagus jugak beri pengajaran kpd org lelaki ni, supaya dia sedar diri sikit. Selama ni aku hanya bersabar n berdiam je. ingat kepala dia je yg besar, aku nyer hangin satu badan... ha.. baru tau skrg! padan muka! sesekali jual mahal, ok apa.. akhirnya, aku beri last chance to isam. disebabkan aku dh jatuh sayang kat dia, itu pasal la aku berlembut hati sket.. tapi.. ini kali ke-2!! masuk ke-3, boleh BLAH!! [garangkah aku?? isam pun pening dgn perangai aku lately ni, tapi dia dh bagus skrg. cakap pun baik2 je.. padan muka!!]. i hope everything's gonna be ok between me n him - precious moments, togetherness, loveliness, huggable, kisses n happiness!! insyaAllah..amin

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Haruskah?

Haruskah aku bersedih?
Haruskah aku ketawa atas perpisahan ini?
Haruskah aku berpaling pada yang lain?
Haruskah aku beri peluang kepadanya sekali lagi?
Haruskah aku tinggalkan segala kenangan dan saat-saat romantis bersama?
......................tiada jawapan..........

Jiwa kacau bilau ~ Batu Buruk, Kuala Terengganu [di sini aku hamparkan kesedihan dan kebahagiaan hidupku dengan dirinya {isam}. Hanya Allah shj yg tahu betapa aku ikhlas menyayangi dan menerima dia seadanya dalam hidupku.. sabarlah.. aku redha & pasrah..]

"ada cerita tentang aku dan dia
dan kita bersama saat dulu kala
ada cerita tentang masa yang indah
saat kita berduka, saat kita tertawa...."
[song: Tentang Kita ~ Peter Pan]

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Ketenangan... dalam kesibukan

January 27, 2009... happy 54th birthday mommy. Thanks for being a great n understanding mommy in this world. Even sumtimes u blurrrrrrrrrr, but ok la. Still belum nyanyuk lagi..hehe. Alhamdulillah syukur, terima kasih ALLAH kerana panjangkan umur ibuku. Smoga kasih sayang kami berpanjangan dan mommy hidup sihat sepanjang hayatnya.. amin.

@Impian Morib.com
Cuti Tahun Baru Cina yg menyakitkan hati? hmm..ntahla. 4 days 3 nites, bosan? tak la.. full activities wit strategic planning office. cuma semlm ptg dan pagi ni je acara 'santai'. Seawal pagi tadi aku dh jalan2 kt tepi pantai, w/pun sunyi cuma dengar bunyi ombak menghempas dinding, air pasang... ikan melompat2 (joran tkde pulak..), agaknya sbb gerahana separa ptg smlm tu yg air pasang pagi ni..huhu.. Duduk sorang2 teringatkan kekasih yg jauh di mata (cewah!) romantik la pulak. pagi2 lagi aku dh terjun pool, memandangkan ini hari terakhir, better lepaskan gian. Lagipun cuma 5 org je trmasuk me.. lain2 tdo lagi kot.. mana taknya, jam 715am..hehe.. i already pack my things.. nk relax je santai dlm bilik n online internet.

How could an angel break my heart?
Ntah apa kabarnya selepas aku amik keputusan tak nak call dia lagi. hmm.. padan muka! asyik aku je yg melebih2, nmpak mcm pipi tersorong2 pulak. bila tk sms @ call, mula la mengamuk tanya knapa tk sms la.. tak call la.. menyampah btul! tak paham aku dgn prangai lelaki. Kita je nk manjakan dia, melampau2 la pulak. Aku pun byk keje jgk, malas la layan hati n perasaan - hati sakit, fikiran tk tenang.. hmm.. lantaklah! susah nk paham perangai isam ni. Nnti kalau aku tinggalkan dia lagi 2 bulan, sure kurus.. sakit sbb bersedih hati. ntahla.. biarkan si luncai terjun dengan labu2nya.. biarkan.. biarkan..

aku dan diriku... dalam kesibukan, ada ketenangan...

Dream World

I would be you, you would be me, we would be one, we would be just fine
The ice caps wouldn't be melting and neither would I, mmh
I would just drive my big old car, and everything would be alright
And energy would just fall down right from the sky, yeah

Words would fly right from out of my mind, out of my mind into your heart, into your life
And everything would sound just right, and no one would stop me from drinking my wine

That's my dreamworld, that's my dreamworld, it's more than a dream
My dreamworld, that's my dreamworld, and I wanna live in my dream, (dream)

For the real world just don't feel right
I wouldn't spend my days searching for, searching for lost time, yeah hey yee (ooh ooh, dream)
I wouldn't be so damn sensitive, I'd let things go by
No matter what the weather, I'd learn to change, I'd change with the time, yeah he

And everytime I need a woman, she'd appear right by me
she hold me tight, treat me right, and tell me that everything is gonna be, is gonna be alright, alright

That's my dreamworld, that's my dreamworld

I would tell Van Gogh that he was loved, there's no need to cry
I would say Marvin Gay your father didn't want you to die (dream)
There would be no black and white, the world just treat my wife right
We could down in Mississipi and no one would look at us trice, ehhe he yihi

That's my dreamworld, that's my dreamworld, it's more than a dream
That's my dreamworld, that's my dreamworld, and I wanna live in my dream, (dream)

[song by RObin Thicke]

Friday, January 23, 2009

Good & Bad Day

kehidupan seharian: kadang-kadang orang tk tau apa yg kita fikirkan. Adakalanya mereka nmpk pada zahirnya kita gembira, tetapi... dalam diri kita sendiri hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu.. i'm really upset lately dgn my mom, isam, J (Westar).. ntahla..
Anyway, life must go on. Aku tetap menggembirakan hati aku dengan pelbagai aktiviti menarik. Contohnya... dengan hadirnya gadjet yg paling aku nanti2kan - HTC Touchpro. Akhirnya.. aku dapat apa yg aku inginkan selama ni. Kira menda paling gerek la awal tahun 2009. Kalau nk pikir harga, smpai tahun depan la tk beli..huhu. Its ok, ada pro n cons dgn menda2 baru ni. Aku akan cuba blajar n mahirkan diri..yezzzza!!!!!!! alhamdulillah.. rezeki lebih tahun 2009.
Lately, aku sgt sibuk. Start wit pra-bengkel, then fly to K.K n balik smula dgn masalah n kerja2 yg bertimbun. Esok all staf in my office bergerak (konvoi) bersama selama 4 hari 3 mlm - jalan2 cari makan sambil bengkel [kasi pecah smua kepala!!!]. Hampeh btul.. cuti pjg tk bleh nk berfoya2, kena koje jugak.
Smoga kebahagiaan yg aku dapat hari ini akan lebih bertambah. Rezeki yg berlebih2, usaha yg berlipat ganda, kesihatan yang baik, hati yang tenteram dan kehidupan yang mendamaikan. insyaAllah...
"hanya padamu aku berserah, tenangkanlah hati ini dan permudahkanlah segala urusanku.. amin ya rabbal alamin......."

How could an angel break my heart

I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didnt he catch my falling star
I wish I didnt wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

I heard here face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in may
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name
I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesnt make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didnt he catch my falling star
I wish I didnt wish so hard
Maybe I wish our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

Oh my soul is dying, its crying
Im trying to understand
Please help me

How could an angel break my heart
Why didnt he catch my falling star
I wish I didnt wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart

[song by Toni Braxton]

*especially for isam [i hate myself for loving u]

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Holiday!!!!

i'll b on leave until... 4 January 2009. Happy Holiday guys!!!!
Holiday Plan:
a) Dating wit bf
b) Going to Sunway Lagoon @ Desa Waterpark wit uncle & aunties. Maybe: Port Dickson this wkend.
c) Shopping!! [IKEA.. i'm cumming!!]
d) Back hometown... meet da parents.

Happy New Year 2009!!

Selamat Tinggal.... 2008

Banyak kisah suka dan duka sepanjang tahun 2008. Ada perkara2 yg tetap aku akan kenang dan ingat sepanjang hayat (insyaAllah.. kalau Allah panjangkan umur & sihat tubuh badan, akal & fikiran). Tiada apa yg hendak dikesalkan sebab apa jugak perkara yg berlaku di tahun 2008 ini dijadikan pengajaran untuk tahun-tahun akan datang.
Di sebalik kejadian, ada rahmat & hidayah.. positively thinking. Usaha, tawakal & redha dengan rahmat Allah SWT. Banyak sgt kisah.... aku summary je la..

Kisah 1: aku & keje
awal tahun ni, aku bz dgn marketing. Seronok la dpt berjalan seminggu lebih kt Sarawak [Kuching, Serian, Sri Aman, Sibu, Miri]. Letih bila pertukaran big bos, nearly 5 months masing2 buat keputusan sendiri & alhamdulillah.. kerja tetap berjalan dengan lancar. Akhir Oktober 2008, dapat berita gembira bila x-boss jadi boss baru aku..hehe.. seronok banyak la sbb he already knew everythings about me n we could work together as a good team!! Even he's da BOSS, dia tetap gerek sey!!!hehe.. Tabik spring boss!!

Kisah 2: aku & cinta
tak ada apa yang menariknya kecuali.. aku mengenali lelaki2 yg baik, macho, gentleman, membosankan, sakit hati, bengap!, bangang pun ada. Hmm.. no offence to others, bercinta dengan lelaki ni samada cari penyakit @ penyakit tu datang sendiri. Most of them, makes my life merrier.. happier & lots of appreciation. Lelaki pertama: yg benar2 menambat hati >> E.Isam [perangainya serupa dgn my x-bf yg pertama bertahta di hati forever "USman". Everything's perfect!, tapi apakan daya.. jodoh tk sampai lagi kot? Lelaki ke2: Arun -- mr. good man & gentleman, aku tk yakin dengan tawarannya "will u marry me?" pertanyaan yg sungguh gembira tapi beri seribu pertanyaan. Tapi akhirnya aku bawa diri, malas nk layan hati & perasaan. Lelaki ke3: Mike -- we still good frens a.k.a teman tapi mesra. Thnks for b'day @ Christmas gift drling, Gucci parfume akhirnya aku dapat!! Lelaki ke4: Mr J -- i like..hehe [baru semlm dating kt ofis dia, melepak smpai ptg]. Kami serasi, dan cuba menghiburkan satu sama lain. Lelaki ke5: Azhar -- i'm still loving u... [we gonna b forever.. until end?? maybe]. Lain-lain yg namanya tidak tercatat dalam ni mungkin byk menyakitkan hati aku & lelaki bangang yg pernah aku kenal. Anway, i'm happy.. dengan kehadiran mereka yg penuh kasih sayang, tak pernah tipu.. selalunya ikhlas. Thnx guys!!!

Kisah 3: Aktiviti
Tahun 2008 aku byk berjalan la.. ke sana ke mari. Dapat menjejakkan kaki ke Kota Kinabalu & bumi Sarawak. Buat keje giler [balik dr Jhr terus ke Kuantan by bus, lepak..]. June 2008 aku beli kereta baru - yg comel tapi tetap vogue! Birthday bash @ ajak hse -- jmpa kawan2 lama, sambil beraya. Konvoi Hari Raya dengan cousins menjadi jugak, hmm..semuanya gara2 aku berkeras dgn plan yg aku buat sendiri..hehe. Tahun depan bleh paksa lagi diaorg join ni. Awal Disember sibuk dgn hantaran my cousin --Bro Fahmy, akhirnya..dia kawin jugak on 13 Dis. 2008. Yg bestnya tu kawin dgn junior me kt Uni dulu..huhu. betapa kecilnya Malaysia ni... Recently, aku sedang berusaha untuk membeli sebuah rumah.. itu perancangan awal, semoga tahun depan aku dpt memiliki rumah sendiri, insyaAllah.

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Aku sangat2 bersyukur.. kerana Allah masih memberi peluang untuk aku mengisi separuh kehidupan ni dengan perkara-perkara yg baik & menggembirakan. Semoga dijauhkan dari kegiatan yg tidak bermaruah & dosa-dosa kecil di masa-masa akan datang. Akan hadirnya kasih sayang sejati dari insan bernama lelaki??? kita tunggu dan lihat sajalah.
Selamat Tinggal 2008 dengan beribu kenangan manis & pahit.. akan ku kenang sepanjang zaman...

"ITS NOT HOW MUCH U DO, BUT HOW MUCH LOVE U PUT IN THE DOING"

FALL FOR YOU

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

[song by Secondhand Serenade]

CRUSH

About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to kno

Do you ever think
When your all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really
Just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away

Has it ever cross
Your mind
When were hangin'
Spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more
See it's a chance
We've gotta take
Cause I believe
That we can
Make this into
Something
That will last
Last forever
Forever

Do you ever think
When your all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really just
Aanother crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away

Why do I keep running
From the truth
All I ever think
About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to know

[song by David Archuleta - American Idol]

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Matahariku [song by Agnes Monica]

Tertutup sudah pintu .. pintu hatiku
Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu
Kini kau pergi dari hidupku
Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau

Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
Takada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

Dengarlah matahariku suara tangisanku
Kubersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku
Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukan waktu

Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
Takada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

Gembirakah aku??

10 Zulhijjah 1429H~~ Aidiladha baru berlalu semalam. Umat islam di seluruh dunia berkumpul di Tanah Suci Mekah untuk menunaikan Rukun Islam ke - 5. Entah bila aku akan menjejakkan kaki ke sana? InsyaAllah.. dua @ tiga tahun lagi jika Allah beri kesempatan untuk aku hidup di dunia yg fana ini. Selama 3 hari ni kita sebagai umat islam boleh bertakbir & bertahmid. ini yg paling menggembirakan aku.. ntahlah, mmg suka sangat dgn takbir raya [almaklumla.. lahir awal subuh jam 3.17pagi Hari Raya Aidilfitri tahun 197..? rahsia..hehe] Aku bersyukur kerana Allah memberikan rezeki yg banyak bila ramai yg menghantar daging korban di rumah parents me. Dapatlah aku bawa balik ke KL 2 kilo..huhu.. banyak tu.. i just reached KL, arrived about 8.30pm n go straight to the office [ambil keta comelku.. aduh! rinduku padamu.. banget!]
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[kisah chenta] nothin' interesting happen lately in my life. its just isam sms n call me back. hmm.. aku serahkn kepada Allah atas hubungan ku dengan isam. Jikalau dia benar2 jodohku, maka kekalkan aku dan jalinkan hubungan yang berlandaskan islam bersamanya. [Setelah penat kita berusaha, bertawakal maka kita harus berserah kepada Allah SWT]

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allahhu... akbar.. allah..hu akbar.. allah.. hu akbar. La..ilahaillallah...huallah..hu akbar. allah..hu akbar wallilla..ilham...

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Us Against the world

Us against the world
Against the world
Us against the world
Against the world

You and I, we've been at it so long
I still got the strongest fire
You and I, we still know how to talk
Know how to walk that wire

Sometimes I feel like
The world is against me
The sound of your voice, baby
That's what saves me
When we're together I feel so invincible

Cause it's us against the world
you n me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

Us against the world
Against the world

There'll be days
We'll be on different sides but
That doesn't last too long
We find ways to get it on track
And know how to turn back on

Sometimes I feel
I can't keep it together
Then you hold me close
And you make it better
When I'm with you
I can feel so unbreakable

Cause it's us against the world
Me and you against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

We're not gonna break
Cause we both still believe
We know what we've got
And we've got what we need alright
We're doing something right

Cause it's us against the world
you n me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall

Cause it's us against the world tonight

Us against the world
you n me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall

Us against the world
Yeah it's Us against the world, baby
Us against the world
Tonight

Us against the world
Against the world
Us against the world

[song by WESTLIFE]

Monday, November 10, 2008

Sorry seems to be a hardest words

What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there

What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word

What do I do to make you love me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I do when lightning strikes me
What have I got to do
What have I got to do
When sorry seems to be the hardest word

[song by ELTON JOHN]

i adore mi amore...



Who the Hell is Daniel Henney?


This is an analysis of a really good-looking man named Daniel Henney and his potential to shatter preconceived notions of Asian American men in America.
On February 21st, 2008, Variety reported a new addition to the ever-growing X-Men Origins: Wolverine cast. With various versions of black-and-white chiseled glamour shots accompanying his name, Daniel Henney, 28, was set to portray Agent Zero, a super-powered secret agent who, along with Wolverine (Hugh Jackman), Sabertooth (Liev Schreiber) and Deadpool (Ryan Reynolds), is part of the Weapons X project in the X-Men prequel.The casting announcement's repost on MovieWeb.com elicited user comments from comic fanboys, who derided the overflow of characters in the film, debated whether Ryan Reynolds' Deadpool could handle a spinoff series, and generally heckled each other for no reason. Then came the winning question: "Who the hell is Daniel Henney??"They only needed to go to the next Google search result to find out. Just Jared, a celebrity gossip site likely frequented by the commercially-viable 18-34 female demographic, had also reposted the Daniel Henney/Agent Zero story. After a deluge of capital letters and emoticons, a "WAAAHHH!!!," and a "i might cry in the theatre from all this beauty," it was clear that this audience knew who Daniel Henney was. And if they didn't, they wanted to know.
Although Henney is a certified heartthrob in Korea and amongst worldwide Korean pop culture fans, he is still a relative newcomer to the entertainment industry, starting only three years ago in 2005. A 6'2" American from Michigan (father is British American, mother is Korean American), Henney hit the jackpot with his first role in the Korean drama My Name is Kim Sam-Soon. He played an English-speaking Korean American doctor, which was quite convenient because at that point his Korean-language skills were still rather shaky. Although Henney didn't play a leading role, the drama gave him extensive exposure -- an estimated 50% of Korean households tuned in for the series finale -- and quickly catapulted him to stardom. Advertisers flocked to him, wanting to capitalize on his newfound fame, and soon he was all over the place, selling everything from cell phones to beer to clothing to cars.
On a surface level, understanding Daniel Henney's appeal is kind of a no-brainer. He's strikingly good-looking. And, he appears to be kind -- so even better.
However, in the context of the Korean Wave, or hallyu, Daniel Henney may have represented something greater. According to Eun Mee Kim, a professor at Ewha Womans University in Korea who studies the global consumption of hallyu, there has been a yearning among Koreans to get a stamp of approval from the West through culture and the arts."The fact that [Daniel Henney] came to Korea to test the Korean market sent at least two messages," explains Lin. "One, that the Korean entertainment market is important enough for an aspiring young American actor; he had to learn Korean and Korean customs, which were not easy by any means, to come to Korea. And two, that Daniel Henney himself is a product of globalization -- bi-racial, multi-cultural, etc. Thus, Daniel Henney was more than other good-looking, gentle Korean male stars since he embodied the 'global' spirit in himself."
In mainstream America, the first glimmer of Daniel Henney came when he was shooting a European commercial with for Bean Pole casual wear with Gwyneth Paltrow. You might not have known who this guy was, but you believed that he had the power to make a statuesque blonde beauty blush. An Oscar-winning Hollywood actress who once had Brad Pitt, no less. After the commercials aired, JoongAng Daily reported that Bean Pole sales were up 28.1 percent from a year earlier (compared to an 8 percent year-on-year increase during the first half of the year).
Jung-sun Park, an Associate professor at California State Unversity, Dominguez Hills researching transnational flows of Korean/Asian pop culture, reflects that only seven to ten years ago, if a Korean American had tried to break into the Korean entertainment industry without being able to speak Korean, it would have been met with harsh criticism.She remembers Yunjin Kim -- the star of Shiri and Seven Days, more familiar to American audiences as Sun on ABC's hit show Lost -- when she began working in Korean dramas in the late '90s. Although Kim was born in South Korea, she had immigrated to the US at the age of 10, so in the beginning of her career, she was speaking Korean with a heavy American accent."Of course, she's had her ups and downs and has been successful," says Park, "but there was pressure on her to improve her Korean if she was serious about building her career in Korea." Henney's less-than-stellar Korean, on the other hand, was not part of the public criticism in the same way, Park points out. His scenes in My Name is Kim Sam-soon were subtitled, he did many of his television talk show interviews entirely in English, and if anything, his American-ness was part of his appeal.

Henney's mixed-blood heritage allowed him to carve out a little niche for himself in Korea. Around the same time, Dennis Oh was another example of a biracial Korean American model-turned-actor playing characters who mostly spoke English. This acceptance of "foreigners" in the Korean mainstream was definitely a reflection of the changing times. Recently, NFL star Hines Ward, who is half Korean and half African American, suddenly created sports fans out of Korean audiences who previously had no interest in football – and made society rethink their past discrimination against mixed-race children.But Daniel Henney's rise also came at a time when Korean youth culture was developing a keen fascination with outer appearances. While conservative traditions and Confucius values would consider such superficialities the antithesis of what was important in society, Park attributes this trend to the proliferation of cyberspace. Suddenly, the youth in Korea were obsessed with self-shots, loading up nicely-lit, well-angled, carefully Photoshop-ed pictures of themselves online and obsessing about how they looked. Cosmetic surgery was on the rise, evaluation of physical appearances became acceptable small talk, and it wasn't considered shameful to be shallow anymore. Park brings up the Korean slang that has permeated the mainstream vernacular, terms that zone in on specific degrees of physical beauty. Having a pretty face (ŏl-tchang/ulzzang), having a nice body (mom-tchang/momzzang), and the ability to look good in whatever clothes you are wearing were considered by youth to be smart investments for one's future success.
In this type of social atmosphere, someone like Daniel Henney was a snug fit. Acting prowess became secondary. Not to insinuate that he can't act -- it's currently debatable, although he did win three Best New Actor nods for his recent dramatic turn in Our Father -- but for the most part, audiences (mostly female) seemed perfectly content with his lighter fare, such as Spring Waltz and Seducing Mr. Perfect.
Which leads us to his current role as Agent Zero in X-men Origins: Wolverine. Although he's expressed interest in working in both the Korean and American entertainment industries in the past, this is the first Hollywood role he's accepted. While it's likely not a major role, it will be a high profile one. In the comics, Agent Zero is an intelligent, mysterious spy/mercenary and a skilled marksman who has the ability to absorb physical impact without getting harmed, including energy beams. It's rumored that the film is changing his character from East German to North Korean, albeit the only source for this so far seems to be Wikipedia.
In Asia, Henney's Western features might stand out, but internationally, it'll be interesting to see if he be categorized as Asian American, or if his ethnicity will be put on the backburner like a Keanu Reeves or a Mark-Paul Gosselaar.
In the US, the lack of Asian American male representation in media has long been a sore subject, mostly amongst Asian American men who are tired of alternately feeling emasculated and being portrayed as gangsters. With the possible exceptions of John Cho and Kal Penn, we're still itching for an Asian American leading man to break through. Henney's case brings up interesting potentials, because although he's already reached star status in Asia, he's not really "crossing over" to America. He's coming back.
While Korean pop culture fans may compare him to Rain, a more experienced Korean talent who is getting his own Hollywood love with back-to-back Wachowski brothers projects, Henney probably has more in common with other American-born talents who have made names for themselves in Asia. Daniel Wu, Wang Leehom, pre-scandal Edison Chen… most of whom haven't made any extensive efforts to act in Hollywood, but could easily step up to the task if offered a role that was worth it. But on the Hollywood silver screen -- where commercial appeal rules, ŏl-tchang and mom-tchang are prerequisites, and multiculturalism might have its limits -- there's something about the non-accented-English speaking, tall-built-and-handsome, half-Caucasian Daniel Henney that might bring him more opportunities than your average Asian or Asian American male actor. It'll be interesting to see how this all unfolds...

Pasrah..

selama ni aku byk bercerita kisah cinta suka dan dukaku.. tapi hanya Tuhan saja yg tahu perasaan & hatiku sekarang. Adakah keputusan aku meninggalkan nya betul? Adakah aku terlalu tegas sangat menyakiti hatinya? Adakah aku terlalu zalim dengan keputusanku ini?

Byk persoalan yg keluar dlm kepala hotak aku beberapa ni... aku pasrah.

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i'm sorry isam.. i break ur heart.. deep inside, i'm still loving u, keep on thinking about u these few days. November 8, 2008 -- i made decision leaving u. its not because of others personal problems, its just me.. i don't wanna stay n being your girlfren forever. i need a guy to b my responsible, caring, loving HUSBAND. we discuss already on our final date last friday nite dat u don't wanna any commitment esp marriage for this time being. Focus on ur financial n business because u're employee on ur own company. i'm sorry, i can't wait longer until 2 @ 3 years. i don't wanna hurt myself, living in world full of lies n being hipocrite. i do love u, i'm happy wit u.. u're such a good man wit good heart, fulls of humour & understanding. as a single woman & eligible bachelorette, lots of eyes r looking at me. How long i wanna b like this? i'm not live until 30 @ 40 years more.. maybe i will die soon. At least i got a husband & babies. I deserve to be happy n living happily wit my own family. U have ur own vision & dreams, me too. i hope u understand drling.. its really hard to let u go, but... for our own sake.. i have to leave u now.. i'm sorry again..

Monday, October 20, 2008

Syawal kembali ceria..

Last wkend me & hsemte ada kesempatan untuk memasak (ala kadar je..) dan menjemput rakan2 trdekat untuk sama-sama hadir 'open house'. i cook nasi arab (kabsa) + ayam, bihun goreng & laksa sarawak. Kak bib pulak masak ketupat nasi & dendeng daging goreng. Ramai yg hadir menceriakan suasana. Dari jam 12.00 tengahri smpai la ke 12 tengahmalam baru tetamu balik. Mak itam & family, azie & family jugak dtg. Sempat la meraikan birthday auntie black aku tu..hehe. Sesekali suka kan hati org tua, dpt pahala yg banyak..huhu. Letih memasak hilang bila tengok semua org dtg menjamu selera. Laksa sarawak dapat pujian khas dr org srwk sendiri. Alhamdulillah, jika panjang umur & murah rezeki tahun depan buat lagi OH (Open House) di bln Syawal yg mulia ni.
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[kisah chenta] bosan dgn sikap isam yg pemarah. sesuka hati lebaran je nk maki2 aku lagi. malas nk layan. Kalau ada jodoh, insyaAllah.. kalau tk ada, bye2 la.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

Hari Raya 2008 Celebration

I would like to wish u all "selamat hari raya" and "eid mubarak. Minal Aidil Wal faizin, maaf zahir & batin. This raya comes amidst great uncertainties and challenges. I believe it is during such times that we come to truely understand the spirit and joy of togetherness, giving, receiving and forgiving.
Few pictures taken during open house @ birthday bash on saturday, 4 october 2008 at parents house.