Holiday!!!!

i'll b on leave until... 4 January 2009. Happy Holiday guys!!!!
Holiday Plan:
a) Dating wit bf
b) Going to Sunway Lagoon @ Desa Waterpark wit uncle & aunties. Maybe: Port Dickson this wkend.
c) Shopping!! [IKEA.. i'm cumming!!]
d) Back hometown... meet da parents.

Happy New Year 2009!!

Selamat Tinggal.... 2008

Banyak kisah suka dan duka sepanjang tahun 2008. Ada perkara2 yg tetap aku akan kenang dan ingat sepanjang hayat (insyaAllah.. kalau Allah panjangkan umur & sihat tubuh badan, akal & fikiran). Tiada apa yg hendak dikesalkan sebab apa jugak perkara yg berlaku di tahun 2008 ini dijadikan pengajaran untuk tahun-tahun akan datang.
Di sebalik kejadian, ada rahmat & hidayah.. positively thinking. Usaha, tawakal & redha dengan rahmat Allah SWT. Banyak sgt kisah.... aku summary je la..

Kisah 1: aku & keje
awal tahun ni, aku bz dgn marketing. Seronok la dpt berjalan seminggu lebih kt Sarawak [Kuching, Serian, Sri Aman, Sibu, Miri]. Letih bila pertukaran big bos, nearly 5 months masing2 buat keputusan sendiri & alhamdulillah.. kerja tetap berjalan dengan lancar. Akhir Oktober 2008, dapat berita gembira bila x-boss jadi boss baru aku..hehe.. seronok banyak la sbb he already knew everythings about me n we could work together as a good team!! Even he's da BOSS, dia tetap gerek sey!!!hehe.. Tabik spring boss!!

Kisah 2: aku & cinta
tak ada apa yang menariknya kecuali.. aku mengenali lelaki2 yg baik, macho, gentleman, membosankan, sakit hati, bengap!, bangang pun ada. Hmm.. no offence to others, bercinta dengan lelaki ni samada cari penyakit @ penyakit tu datang sendiri. Most of them, makes my life merrier.. happier & lots of appreciation. Lelaki pertama: yg benar2 menambat hati >> E.Isam [perangainya serupa dgn my x-bf yg pertama bertahta di hati forever "USman". Everything's perfect!, tapi apakan daya.. jodoh tk sampai lagi kot? Lelaki ke2: Arun -- mr. good man & gentleman, aku tk yakin dengan tawarannya "will u marry me?" pertanyaan yg sungguh gembira tapi beri seribu pertanyaan. Tapi akhirnya aku bawa diri, malas nk layan hati & perasaan. Lelaki ke3: Mike -- we still good frens a.k.a teman tapi mesra. Thnks for b'day @ Christmas gift drling, Gucci parfume akhirnya aku dapat!! Lelaki ke4: Mr J -- i like..hehe [baru semlm dating kt ofis dia, melepak smpai ptg]. Kami serasi, dan cuba menghiburkan satu sama lain. Lelaki ke5: Azhar -- i'm still loving u... [we gonna b forever.. until end?? maybe]. Lain-lain yg namanya tidak tercatat dalam ni mungkin byk menyakitkan hati aku & lelaki bangang yg pernah aku kenal. Anway, i'm happy.. dengan kehadiran mereka yg penuh kasih sayang, tak pernah tipu.. selalunya ikhlas. Thnx guys!!!

Kisah 3: Aktiviti
Tahun 2008 aku byk berjalan la.. ke sana ke mari. Dapat menjejakkan kaki ke Kota Kinabalu & bumi Sarawak. Buat keje giler [balik dr Jhr terus ke Kuantan by bus, lepak..]. June 2008 aku beli kereta baru - yg comel tapi tetap vogue! Birthday bash @ ajak hse -- jmpa kawan2 lama, sambil beraya. Konvoi Hari Raya dengan cousins menjadi jugak, hmm..semuanya gara2 aku berkeras dgn plan yg aku buat sendiri..hehe. Tahun depan bleh paksa lagi diaorg join ni. Awal Disember sibuk dgn hantaran my cousin --Bro Fahmy, akhirnya..dia kawin jugak on 13 Dis. 2008. Yg bestnya tu kawin dgn junior me kt Uni dulu..huhu. betapa kecilnya Malaysia ni... Recently, aku sedang berusaha untuk membeli sebuah rumah.. itu perancangan awal, semoga tahun depan aku dpt memiliki rumah sendiri, insyaAllah.

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Aku sangat2 bersyukur.. kerana Allah masih memberi peluang untuk aku mengisi separuh kehidupan ni dengan perkara-perkara yg baik & menggembirakan. Semoga dijauhkan dari kegiatan yg tidak bermaruah & dosa-dosa kecil di masa-masa akan datang. Akan hadirnya kasih sayang sejati dari insan bernama lelaki??? kita tunggu dan lihat sajalah.
Selamat Tinggal 2008 dengan beribu kenangan manis & pahit.. akan ku kenang sepanjang zaman...

"ITS NOT HOW MUCH U DO, BUT HOW MUCH LOVE U PUT IN THE DOING"

FALL FOR YOU

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

[song by Secondhand Serenade]

CRUSH

About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to kno

Do you ever think
When your all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really
Just another crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away

Has it ever cross
Your mind
When were hangin'
Spending time girl
Are we just friends
Is there more
Is there more
See it's a chance
We've gotta take
Cause I believe
That we can
Make this into
Something
That will last
Last forever
Forever

Do you ever think
When your all alone
All that we can be
Where this can go
Am I crazy
Or falling in love
Is it really just
Aanother crush
Do you catch a breath
When I look at you
Are you holding back
Like the way I do
But I know this crush
Ain't goin' away

Why do I keep running
From the truth
All I ever think
About is you
You got me hypnotized
So mesmerized
And I just got to know

[song by David Archuleta - American Idol]

Matahariku [song by Agnes Monica]

Tertutup sudah pintu .. pintu hatiku
Yang pernah dibuka waktu hanya untukmu
Kini kau pergi dari hidupku
Kuharus relakanmu walau aku tak mau

Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
Takada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

Dengarlah matahariku suara tangisanku
Kubersedih kerna panah cinta menusuk jantungku
Ucapkan matahariku puisi tentang hidupku
Tentangku yang tak mampu menaklukan waktu

Berjuta warna pelangi didalam hati
Sejenak luluh bergening menjauh pergi
Takada lagi cahaya suci
Semua nada beranjak aku terdiam sepi

Gembirakah aku??

10 Zulhijjah 1429H~~ Aidiladha baru berlalu semalam. Umat islam di seluruh dunia berkumpul di Tanah Suci Mekah untuk menunaikan Rukun Islam ke - 5. Entah bila aku akan menjejakkan kaki ke sana? InsyaAllah.. dua @ tiga tahun lagi jika Allah beri kesempatan untuk aku hidup di dunia yg fana ini. Selama 3 hari ni kita sebagai umat islam boleh bertakbir & bertahmid. ini yg paling menggembirakan aku.. ntahlah, mmg suka sangat dgn takbir raya [almaklumla.. lahir awal subuh jam 3.17pagi Hari Raya Aidilfitri tahun 197..? rahsia..hehe] Aku bersyukur kerana Allah memberikan rezeki yg banyak bila ramai yg menghantar daging korban di rumah parents me. Dapatlah aku bawa balik ke KL 2 kilo..huhu.. banyak tu.. i just reached KL, arrived about 8.30pm n go straight to the office [ambil keta comelku.. aduh! rinduku padamu.. banget!]
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[kisah chenta] nothin' interesting happen lately in my life. its just isam sms n call me back. hmm.. aku serahkn kepada Allah atas hubungan ku dengan isam. Jikalau dia benar2 jodohku, maka kekalkan aku dan jalinkan hubungan yang berlandaskan islam bersamanya. [Setelah penat kita berusaha, bertawakal maka kita harus berserah kepada Allah SWT]

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allahhu... akbar.. allah..hu akbar.. allah.. hu akbar. La..ilahaillallah...huallah..hu akbar. allah..hu akbar wallilla..ilham...

Us Against the world

Us against the world
Against the world
Us against the world
Against the world

You and I, we've been at it so long
I still got the strongest fire
You and I, we still know how to talk
Know how to walk that wire

Sometimes I feel like
The world is against me
The sound of your voice, baby
That's what saves me
When we're together I feel so invincible

Cause it's us against the world
you n me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

Us against the world
Against the world

There'll be days
We'll be on different sides but
That doesn't last too long
We find ways to get it on track
And know how to turn back on

Sometimes I feel
I can't keep it together
Then you hold me close
And you make it better
When I'm with you
I can feel so unbreakable

Cause it's us against the world
Me and you against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall
Cause it's us against the world tonight

We're not gonna break
Cause we both still believe
We know what we've got
And we've got what we need alright
We're doing something right

Cause it's us against the world
you n me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall

Cause it's us against the world tonight

Us against the world
you n me against them all
If you listen to these words
Know that we are standing tall
I don't ever see the day that
I won't catch you when you fall

Us against the world
Yeah it's Us against the world, baby
Us against the world
Tonight

Us against the world
Against the world
Us against the world

[song by WESTLIFE]

Sorry seems to be a hardest words

What have I got to do to make you love me
What have I got to do to make you care
What do I do when lightning strikes me
And I wake to find that you're not there

What do I do to make you want me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I say when it's all over
And sorry seems to be the hardest word

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation
And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word

What do I do to make you love me
What have I got to do to be heard
What do I do when lightning strikes me
What have I got to do
What have I got to do
When sorry seems to be the hardest word

[song by ELTON JOHN]

i adore mi amore...

Who the Hell is Daniel Henney?

By Ada Tseng

This is an analysis of a really good-looking man named Daniel Henney and his potential to shatter preconceived notions of Asian American men in America.
On February 21st, 2008, Variety reported a new addition to the ever-growing X-Men Origins: Wolverine cast. With various versions of black-and-white chiseled glamour shots accompanying his name, Daniel Henney, 28, was set to portray Agent Zero, a super-powered secret agent who, along with Wolverine (Hugh Jackman), Sabertooth (Liev Schreiber) and Deadpool (Ryan Reynolds), is part of the Weapons X project in the X-Men prequel.The casting announcement's repost on MovieWeb.com elicited user comments from comic fanboys, who derided the overflow of characters in the film, debated whether Ryan Reynolds' Deadpool could handle a spinoff series, and generally heckled each other for no reason. Then came the winning question: "Who the hell is Daniel Henney??"They only needed to go to the next Google search result to find out. Just Jared, a celebrity gossip site likely frequented by the commercially-viable 18-34 female demographic, had also reposted the Daniel Henney/Agent Zero story. After a deluge of capital letters and emoticons, a "WAAAHHH!!!," and a "i might cry in the theatre from all this beauty," it was clear that this audience knew who Daniel Henney was. And if they didn't, they wanted to know.
Although Henney is a certified heartthrob in Korea and amongst worldwide Korean pop culture fans, he is still a relative newcomer to the entertainment industry, starting only three years ago in 2005. A 6'2" American from Michigan (father is British American, mother is Korean American), Henney hit the jackpot with his first role in the Korean drama My Name is Kim Sam-Soon. He played an English-speaking Korean American doctor, which was quite convenient because at that point his Korean-language skills were still rather shaky. Although Henney didn't play a leading role, the drama gave him extensive exposure -- an estimated 50% of Korean households tuned in for the series finale -- and quickly catapulted him to stardom. Advertisers flocked to him, wanting to capitalize on his newfound fame, and soon he was all over the place, selling everything from cell phones to beer to clothing to cars.
On a surface level, understanding Daniel Henney's appeal is kind of a no-brainer. He's strikingly good-looking. And, he appears to be kind -- so even better.
However, in the context of the Korean Wave, or hallyu, Daniel Henney may have represented something greater. According to Eun Mee Kim, a professor at Ewha Womans University in Korea who studies the global consumption of hallyu, there has been a yearning among Koreans to get a stamp of approval from the West through culture and the arts."The fact that [Daniel Henney] came to Korea to test the Korean market sent at least two messages," explains Lin. "One, that the Korean entertainment market is important enough for an aspiring young American actor; he had to learn Korean and Korean customs, which were not easy by any means, to come to Korea. And two, that Daniel Henney himself is a product of globalization -- bi-racial, multi-cultural, etc. Thus, Daniel Henney was more than other good-looking, gentle Korean male stars since he embodied the 'global' spirit in himself."
In mainstream America, the first glimmer of Daniel Henney came when he was shooting a European commercial with for Bean Pole casual wear with Gwyneth Paltrow. You might not have known who this guy was, but you believed that he had the power to make a statuesque blonde beauty blush. An Oscar-winning Hollywood actress who once had Brad Pitt, no less. After the commercials aired, JoongAng Daily reported that Bean Pole sales were up 28.1 percent from a year earlier (compared to an 8 percent year-on-year increase during the first half of the year).
Jung-sun Park, an Associate professor at California State Unversity, Dominguez Hills researching transnational flows of Korean/Asian pop culture, reflects that only seven to ten years ago, if a Korean American had tried to break into the Korean entertainment industry without being able to speak Korean, it would have been met with harsh criticism.She remembers Yunjin Kim -- the star of Shiri and Seven Days, more familiar to American audiences as Sun on ABC's hit show Lost -- when she began working in Korean dramas in the late '90s. Although Kim was born in South Korea, she had immigrated to the US at the age of 10, so in the beginning of her career, she was speaking Korean with a heavy American accent."Of course, she's had her ups and downs and has been successful," says Park, "but there was pressure on her to improve her Korean if she was serious about building her career in Korea." Henney's less-than-stellar Korean, on the other hand, was not part of the public criticism in the same way, Park points out. His scenes in My Name is Kim Sam-soon were subtitled, he did many of his television talk show interviews entirely in English, and if anything, his American-ness was part of his appeal.

Henney's mixed-blood heritage allowed him to carve out a little niche for himself in Korea. Around the same time, Dennis Oh was another example of a biracial Korean American model-turned-actor playing characters who mostly spoke English. This acceptance of "foreigners" in the Korean mainstream was definitely a reflection of the changing times. Recently, NFL star Hines Ward, who is half Korean and half African American, suddenly created sports fans out of Korean audiences who previously had no interest in football – and made society rethink their past discrimination against mixed-race children.But Daniel Henney's rise also came at a time when Korean youth culture was developing a keen fascination with outer appearances. While conservative traditions and Confucius values would consider such superficialities the antithesis of what was important in society, Park attributes this trend to the proliferation of cyberspace. Suddenly, the youth in Korea were obsessed with self-shots, loading up nicely-lit, well-angled, carefully Photoshop-ed pictures of themselves online and obsessing about how they looked. Cosmetic surgery was on the rise, evaluation of physical appearances became acceptable small talk, and it wasn't considered shameful to be shallow anymore. Park brings up the Korean slang that has permeated the mainstream vernacular, terms that zone in on specific degrees of physical beauty. Having a pretty face (ŏl-tchang/ulzzang), having a nice body (mom-tchang/momzzang), and the ability to look good in whatever clothes you are wearing were considered by youth to be smart investments for one's future success.
In this type of social atmosphere, someone like Daniel Henney was a snug fit. Acting prowess became secondary. Not to insinuate that he can't act -- it's currently debatable, although he did win three Best New Actor nods for his recent dramatic turn in Our Father -- but for the most part, audiences (mostly female) seemed perfectly content with his lighter fare, such as Spring Waltz and Seducing Mr. Perfect.
Which leads us to his current role as Agent Zero in X-men Origins: Wolverine. Although he's expressed interest in working in both the Korean and American entertainment industries in the past, this is the first Hollywood role he's accepted. While it's likely not a major role, it will be a high profile one. In the comics, Agent Zero is an intelligent, mysterious spy/mercenary and a skilled marksman who has the ability to absorb physical impact without getting harmed, including energy beams. It's rumored that the film is changing his character from East German to North Korean, albeit the only source for this so far seems to be Wikipedia.
In Asia, Henney's Western features might stand out, but internationally, it'll be interesting to see if he be categorized as Asian American, or if his ethnicity will be put on the backburner like a Keanu Reeves or a Mark-Paul Gosselaar.
In the US, the lack of Asian American male representation in media has long been a sore subject, mostly amongst Asian American men who are tired of alternately feeling emasculated and being portrayed as gangsters. With the possible exceptions of John Cho and Kal Penn, we're still itching for an Asian American leading man to break through. Henney's case brings up interesting potentials, because although he's already reached star status in Asia, he's not really "crossing over" to America. He's coming back.
While Korean pop culture fans may compare him to Rain, a more experienced Korean talent who is getting his own Hollywood love with back-to-back Wachowski brothers projects, Henney probably has more in common with other American-born talents who have made names for themselves in Asia. Daniel Wu, Wang Leehom, pre-scandal Edison Chen… most of whom haven't made any extensive efforts to act in Hollywood, but could easily step up to the task if offered a role that was worth it. But on the Hollywood silver screen -- where commercial appeal rules, ŏl-tchang and mom-tchang are prerequisites, and multiculturalism might have its limits -- there's something about the non-accented-English speaking, tall-built-and-handsome, half-Caucasian Daniel Henney that might bring him more opportunities than your average Asian or Asian American male actor. It'll be interesting to see how this all unfolds...

Pasrah..

selama ni aku byk bercerita kisah cinta suka dan dukaku.. tapi hanya Tuhan saja yg tahu perasaan & hatiku sekarang. Adakah keputusan aku meninggalkan nya betul? Adakah aku terlalu tegas sangat menyakiti hatinya? Adakah aku terlalu zalim dengan keputusanku ini?

Byk persoalan yg keluar dlm kepala hotak aku beberapa ni... aku pasrah.

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i'm sorry isam.. i break ur heart.. deep inside, i'm still loving u, keep on thinking about u these few days. November 8, 2008 -- i made decision leaving u. its not because of others personal problems, its just me.. i don't wanna stay n being your girlfren forever. i need a guy to b my responsible, caring, loving HUSBAND. we discuss already on our final date last friday nite dat u don't wanna any commitment esp marriage for this time being. Focus on ur financial n business because u're employee on ur own company. i'm sorry, i can't wait longer until 2 @ 3 years. i don't wanna hurt myself, living in world full of lies n being hipocrite. i do love u, i'm happy wit u.. u're such a good man wit good heart, fulls of humour & understanding. as a single woman & eligible bachelorette, lots of eyes r looking at me. How long i wanna b like this? i'm not live until 30 @ 40 years more.. maybe i will die soon. At least i got a husband & babies. I deserve to be happy n living happily wit my own family. U have ur own vision & dreams, me too. i hope u understand drling.. its really hard to let u go, but... for our own sake.. i have to leave u now.. i'm sorry again..

Syawal kembali ceria..

Last wkend me & hsemte ada kesempatan untuk memasak (ala kadar je..) dan menjemput rakan2 trdekat untuk sama-sama hadir 'open house'. i cook nasi arab (kabsa) + ayam, bihun goreng & laksa sarawak. Kak bib pulak masak ketupat nasi & dendeng daging goreng. Ramai yg hadir menceriakan suasana. Dari jam 12.00 tengahri smpai la ke 12 tengahmalam baru tetamu balik. Mak itam & family, azie & family jugak dtg. Sempat la meraikan birthday auntie black aku tu..hehe. Sesekali suka kan hati org tua, dpt pahala yg banyak..huhu. Letih memasak hilang bila tengok semua org dtg menjamu selera. Laksa sarawak dapat pujian khas dr org srwk sendiri. Alhamdulillah, jika panjang umur & murah rezeki tahun depan buat lagi OH (Open House) di bln Syawal yg mulia ni.
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[kisah chenta] bosan dgn sikap isam yg pemarah. sesuka hati lebaran je nk maki2 aku lagi. malas nk layan. Kalau ada jodoh, insyaAllah.. kalau tk ada, bye2 la.

Hari Raya 2008 Celebration

I would like to wish u all "selamat hari raya" and "eid mubarak. Minal Aidil Wal faizin, maaf zahir & batin. This raya comes amidst great uncertainties and challenges. I believe it is during such times that we come to truely understand the spirit and joy of togetherness, giving, receiving and forgiving.
Few pictures taken during open house @ birthday bash on saturday, 4 october 2008 at parents house.

Apa yang dicari?

Recent activities:

Jumaat, 12 Sept. 2008: tghri tu pi ofis J n nk hantar artikel pasal keta lelong, but aku pun terjebak sama kena ikut dia pi amik bubur kat bangunan Amanah Raya. Hmm.. ntah apa agaknya staf2 dia teringin nk mkn. Sempat jgk jalan2 kt Jln TAR cuci mata n bual2 dgn J. (sorila.. dia tk pi solat Jumaat, aku dh paksa tapi... ). its been a while kitaorg tk jmpa, jadi kesempatan ni kami guna sebaiknya -- teman tapi mesra..heheh. Dh malas nk layan perasaan dgn dia ni, nnti aku jgk yg sakit ati. Balik dr ofis ptg tu terus ke Jln Medan Tuanku (ofis Mike). Dia dh janji nk buka puasa sama (dgn dia skali aku paksa berpuasa). i thought nk makan kat Cotton Club, Maju Junction tapi rupa-rupanya under renovation. So terpaksa la tukar tmpt - Kenny Roger's Roaster. Aku sempat tapau Tepanyaki (my favorite!) n slumber je bwk masuk dlm KR, depa pun tk sound pasal makanan luar aku bwk..hehe. After buka lepak jap kt ofis mike (bual2 mesra.. he's missing me much sbb sebln lebih aku busy, tk sempat dating) n hntr dia balik kt Kerinchi. Sementara menunggu Julia smpai tengah mlm dr Jb, me terus ke masjid jamek - solat terawih. Dok melepak kt tepi jln sblah Puduraya, cuci mata tgk perangai org balik kmpg n ulat2 jual tiket. Mcm bosan je.. sempat trtdo jap dlm keta..huhu.

Sabtu, 13 Sept. 2008: Julia ada class ptg so aku tunggu je la dia kt umah. Program utk dia, mlm tu ajak pi Jln TAR naik lrt. Punyala sesak kat area Masjid India..huhu.. sakit kpala aku dibuatnya dgn lautan manusia yg sibuk nk shopping raya. Dgn baju2 yg pelbagai harga & warna, kuih2 raya 5 paket RM20.00 (blum sempat hari raya, dh tk bleh makan). aku tkde beli apa2 pun, plan nk shopping lambat lagi.

Sunday, 14 Sept. 2008: Tghri tu ajak Julia pi Midvalley @ The Gardens since dia nk beli kasut raya. Tapi byk yg tk berkenan, katanya aku bwk dia pi tmpt2 yg mahal. Hmm.. no komen la. kalau nk yg murah, better pi Uptown @ Downtown. Kasut hrga RM10 pun bleh dapat..huhu. Tapi tkpela, biar dia jalan2 cuci mata kat Midvaley & T. Gardens, lagipun first time dia smpai sini. Dlm jam 3 lebih aku ajak dia pi Bangar Village. Before dat singgah kt masjid Saidina Abu Bakar, Bangsar n aku pun menunaikan tanggunjwb sbg seorg muslim - membayar zakat fitrah. Alhamdulillah... Kt Bangsar Village pun Julie tk berkenan nk shopping, katanya mahal jugak. Alamak... mana lagi aku nk bwk dia? cuaca yg cerah tiba2 mendung & ujan. Its nearly 4pm, nk tk nak aku trpaksa hantar dia terus ke Pudu (bas jam 6pm dr KL-Kulai). Sempat singgah kt Merdeka Square dlm 10 minit, Julia kemas brg2 kt bonet & transfer terus ke depan. Sempat snap few pictures kt sini. Dh bertahun2 aku tk melepak kt sini, so.. abadikanlah kenangan utk masa depan.

HIJRAH: Minda & Tasawwur

Hijrah berasal daripada perkataan bahasa Arab yang membawa maksud meninggalkan satu tempat untuk menuju ke tempat lain. Ada di kalangan ahli bahasa yang memberi erti hijrah adalah merangkumi hijrah jasmani dan hijrah rohani. Maksud hijrah jasmani ialah meninggalkan satu-satu tempat. Manakala hijrah rohani pula ialah meninggalkan satu-satu sikap, kepercayaan, akidah, emosi dan tasawur serta menggantikannya dengan yang lain.

a) Falsafah penghijrahan Rasulullah s.a.w dari Mekah ke Madinah adalah untuk memastikan perpindahan keyakinan, tasawur, akhlak dan sikap para sahabat r.a dari pengaruh jahiliyah kepada pengaruh wahyu dan fitrah, dapat berjalan dengan lancar tanpa sebarang gangguan.
b) Tugas manusia di dunia ini ialah menjalankan tugas dan tanggungjawab dengan sesempurna yang mungkin tanpa bersikap sambil lewa atau cuai. Ini kerana setiap tugas dan tanggungjawab yang ditunaikan akan dikira oleh Allah sebagai kebajikan sekalipun hasilnya tidak sempat dirasai oleh pelaku ataupun orang lain.
c) Nabi Muhammad S.A.W sentiasa ingin melihat manusia hidup sebagai hamba kepada Allah dan bukannya hamba kepada nafsu atau makhluk lain dan juga jauh dari tasawur atau keyakinan yang tidak menepati ajaran Islam yang sebenar. Ini kerana Islam datang dengan tujuan membebaskan manusia daripada penjajahan minda dan tasawur.

Blessing of Ramadan Mubarak

Lama tk tulis blog, malaskah aku? bukanlah.. tiada kesempatan utk menulis, jika ada masa senggang ni, barulah bleh mulakan.. dgn bismillahhirrahmannirrahim..
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alhamdulillah.. syukur, Allah memberi aku kesempatan untuk mengerjakan ibadah puasa bagi tahun ni. w/pun hari pertama hingga ke 3 aku tk bleh berpuasa, takpela.. aku redha. Hari ni insyaAllah, genap 10 hari berpuasa. Kesihatan yg ok w'pun mlm semlm kaki kanan cramp masa solat terawih n semlm aku berehat kt umah spjg hari - baring je.. Sempena menyahut saranan supaya kempen berjimat cermat (even me dr dulu mmg suka masak kt umah bila berbuka) maka me n hsemte buat keputusan utk memasak bagi menyediakan hidangan berbuka puasa. Banyak menu baru yg dh kami cuba. Dari masakan ala2 thai smpai la ke tanah arab..hehe. Yg penting dipelbagaikan jadi masakan ala2 malaysia. Menu yg paling best skali: ayam ala2 arab, ikan siakap tiga rasa, telur bistik, ikan tongkol (aya - lauk utk nasi dagang), kuih sagu gula merah & bubur sum-sum. First time buat menu tu, smuanya menjadi..huhhu.. Yg penting, kami smua tk cerewet. makan je la apa yg ada. Hmm.. apa menu hari ni eh? (masih lagi blom dpt jawapan...mungkin ayam masak asam pedas kot.
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Bahagiakah aku? alhamdulillah.. kasih sayang me & isam semakin erat. Even dia busy prepare byk menda utk kehadiran ibunya ke m'sia (selalu dtg temankannya sepanjang ramadan n until aidiladha) seminggu sblum puasa tapi dia masih sempat luangkan masa dgn me. Dia langsung tk stuju bila me kata sepanjang Ramadan kita tk payah jmpa, bykkan ibadah, jauhkan dr segala maksiat..hehe. Mula2 ok je, but rindu punya pasal... last nite dia mai jugak jmpa me (20 minit) je..huhu. N he's plan buka puasa dgn me dlm waktu terdekat ni, ada chance tu pun bila bawa mak dia brbuka puasa dgn kawannya (nearby my hse). apa2 je la.. aku layankan je. Kadang2 tu bukannya kita nk jual mahal, tapi biar dia jugak bersungguh2, baru la adil. Taklah kita rasa macam terhegeh2 je kat dia. Our plan - shopping Hari Raya on 25 September nanti (mlm sblum flight balik ke JB).
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Lain2 cite takde, cuma byk invitation dr kwn2 utk buka puasa sama. Sorila.. bukan taknak. Tapi langkah jimat cermat & duit yg ada pun dh reserve utk road tax keta..hehe. Unless bfren2 yg sudi nk blanja buka puasa, aku pegi je la. This friday nite, buka puasa dgn mike. Then amik Julz kt Pudu, saturday maybe dgn erin & shidah kot.. nk tengok gambar2 wedding dia..huhu.. mesti best!

LOVE in this Club [Usher]

Gotta do it for the ladies.
And I gotta keep it hood.
Where we at Polo? "Ay"
I see you Ryan
What you do was right
But we just getting started. Yeaaaa Man.

You see you searching for somebody that'll
take you out and do you right.
Well come here baby and let daddy
show you what it feel like.
You know all you gotta do is
tell me what your sippin' on.
And I promise that ima keep it commin' all night long.

Lookin' in your eyes,
While you walk the other side,
(and I think that shawty I've got a thing for you)
Doin' it on purpose, winding and workin' it.
I can tell by the way you lookin' at me girl.

I wanna make love in this club.
In this club
In this club
In this club
I wanna make love in this club.
In this club
In this club
In this club

Listen, you got some friends rollin' wit you baby then that's cool.
You can leave them with my nigga's, let
em know that I got you.
If you didn't know, you're
the only thing thats on my mind.
Cuz, the way I'm starrin miss you got me
wantin' to give it to you all night.

Lookin' in your eyes while you walk the other side
I can't take it no more, baby I'm commin for you
You keep doin' it on purpose winding and working it.
If we close our eyes it could be just me and you.

[ Find more Lyrics at www.mp3lyrics.org/wGbN ]
I wanna make love in this club.
In this club
In this club
In this club
I wanna make love in this club.
In this club
In this club
In this club [ repeat x2 ]

[ Young Jeezy ]
(Well, you know we always rollin', I'm on em)
Yea, Lets go
I'm what you want, I'm what you need.
He got you traped, I'll set you free,
Sexually, mentally, physically, emotionally,
I'll be like your medicine, you'll take every dose of me.
It's goin down on isle 3, i'll bag you like some groceries.
And everytime you think about it, you
gon' want some more of me.
About to hit the club make a movie yea
rated R. Pulled up like a Trap Star,
that's if you had yo regular car.
You ever made love to a thug in the
club with his ice on, 87 jeans and a
fresh pair of
Nike's on. On the couch, on the table,
on the bar, on the floor.
You meet me in the bathroom, yea
you know I'm trained to go.

You might as well give me a kiss, If we
keep touching like this
I know you scared, baby they
don't know what we doing.
let's both get undressed right here,
Keep it up girl and
I swear
I'ma give it to you non-stop
And I don't care who's watchin
watchin, watchin (watchin, watchin)
oohh, in this club, on the floor
Baby lets make love

I wanna make love in this club.
In this club
In this club
In this club
I wanna make love in this club.
In this club
In this club
In this club

yea...

Cover Magazine

amacam? gerek tak? sesekali glamor apa salahnya... wakakak.. (perasan). Picture taken by erin masa tunggu mak andam pasang pelamin kat dewan. Nmpak mcm cun je hfon sony ericson ni.. tapi aku tetap setia dengan motorola..huhu. selagi tk rosak & boleh berfungsi, akan ku gunakan sebaik mungkin L7 ni. tengah menunggu2 kot2 xbf nk hantar hfon baru kt me frm s'pore.. syioknya!!! hanya dia je yg slalu sponsor hfon dari tahun 2000 hingga la sekarang. thnx awak.. jasa & kenangan bersamamu sentiasa dalam ingatan. Kasih sayang berpanjangan w'pun kita jauh terpisah..

BREATHLESS

If our love was a fairy tale
I would charge in and rescue you
On a yacht baby we would sail
To an island where we’d say I do

And if we had babies they would look like you
It’d be so beautiful if that came true
You don’t even know how very special you are

[Chorus]

You leave me breathless
You’re everything good in my life
You leave me breathless
I still can’t believe that you’re mine
You just walked out of one of my dreams
So beautiful you’re leaving me
Breathless

And if our love was a story book
We would meet on the very first page
The last chapter would be about
How I’m thankful for the life we’ve made

And if we had babies they would have your eyes
I would fall deeper watching you give life
You don’t even know how very special you are

[Chorus]

You must have been sent from heaven to earth to change me
You’re like an angel
The thing that I feel is stronger than love believe me
You’re something special
I only hope that I’ll one day deserve what you’ve given me
But all I can do is try
Every day of my life

[Song by Shane Ward]

aku, dia dan... kereta comelku..

lama sudah tk tulis blog, busy ke? tak la sangat.. cuma kena tengok mood jugak bila nk brkarya ni.. cewah! wat happen lately???? huhu... banyak kisah babe~!

last wednesday (13 Ogos 2008) on da way to Stadium S.Alam (semi final bola sepak : Johor vs Selangor) kat federal hiway, keta comelku bontotnya dilanggar dari belakang... Peh! terkejut beruk aku dlm keta. bergegar 1 badan, hati byk sakit.. masa tu bukan aku pun yg bawak. si azroel.. tapi he's a good driver, lagipun waktu tu keta Perdana V6 depan me tiba2 brhenti mengejut! dlm kelajuan tahap biasa 60 km/j masih bleh control lagi la.. aku yg duduk blakang ni.. mmg panas hati! especially bila nampak 'call man' kuar dr keta myvi, depan Perdana V6 kitaorg. Mmg sial! keje diaorg la ni kt hiway, nk dpt duit! terus aku amik hfon, took pic bontot keta. then ckp dgn Azwar (owner keta yg sondol m0ntot keta me) "apa2 hal, kita settle kat balai. Keta azwar remuk teruk sbb sebuah hyundai di belakangnya la yg drive mcm org mabuk (sam @ chinese hot lady).

hmm.. khamis (14 Ogos 2008) bloomy sepanjang hari, tk tau nk buat apa. nk contact mana punya bengkel & insurance. last2 i send sms to isam "i need u badly", he called me suruh hantar kat bengkel yg biasa bikin keta wajanya di Kelana Jaya. Jam 5pm aku terus pecut ke Kelana Jaya jmpa Ah Chai. Dia janji settlekan smuanya.. aku pun balik ke rumah naik lrt..huhu.

Then mlm tu isam dtg jmpa me; full of caring & loving. Dia byk ceriakan hidup aku bila benar2 memerlukan seseorang. Even we just spent time only 1 hour, cukuplah berikan ketenangan.. Thnx drlin, i owe u so much! muahs!

Friday, i'm in love... but, ada lagi perkara2 yg tk diingini brlaku kat umah. aku sibuk membasuh seawal subuh jam 6am. Tiba2 salur air kt balcony dapur sudah trsumbat. maka penuhla air.. atas paras buku lali n masuk ke dapur.. sabar je la.. pam punya pam sampai sakit kaki & blakang (nearly 2 hours beb!) tapi tk surut2 jugak. aku turun pi mgmnt office, call sana sini. Then contractor technical datang. ini lah nasib penghuni apartment di tingkat 1, mcm hampeh!

Tghri tu aku berebut ke Puduraya, amik bus jam 1.30pm ke JB. Esok my pet-bro (Erin @ Kole) wedding!! mesti balik apa.. nanti mak bapak dia marah.. Smpai kmpg, rilex dulu. Lepas mgrib baru gerak ke umah erin, lepak dgn shidah kejap then pi dewan sri sayong tolong diaorg buat apa yg patut. Sambil tunggu mak andam dtg buat pelamin, sempat la berborak itu ini. Lewat pagi jam 3am balik umah parents.

Sabtu (16 Ogos 2008) reunion!! hampir keseluruhan best fren geng2 CS kt Uitm Jengka dtg. even hujan lebat kt luar, majlis persandingan adik aku tetap berjalan dengan lancar.. sedih jgk bila tgk dia dh kawin. bila pulak turn aku eh? soon! (perasan...hehe). geng2 CS yg hadir: chombi, tompel, jalie, pok cheq, lan @ condo & isteri (marni <<>

Sunday, i'm back to KL. Dalam keletihan majlis persandingan adik aku, sempat la tolong mom cleaning the house.

Monday, hooooooooraaaaaaaaay!!! gumbira rasanya hati bila lewat ptg dpt call dr Ah Chai "keta sudah siap, bila mau mari?" mmg bestla ko ah chai! thnx! i call azwar kasitau yg keta me dh siap n sempat jugak call sam. hmm..apa lagi.. semangat berkobar2 la nk amik keta kt Kelana Jaya. when i told Joe nk ke KJ, tiba2 dia nk ikut sekali. (Ops!.. i dh berbaik2 dgn Joey, itu pun puas dia pujuk ajak lunch @ karaoke at Ampang Park last week). Kami naik lrt la ke sana.. he's look tired n betul2 rindukan me...hehe. After sign all those insurance claim forms, joe check itu ini. Alhamdulillah.. i drive back to KL. Hntar joe ke Pavilion, ada appointment pasal business dia katanya then me pun terus balik umah belek keta jap..hehe. Nearly jam 11pm i rcvd sms from joe "u r luvly". sengal apa romeo ni? sakit rindu la tu kot.. rupa2nya balik dr Pavilion, dia sempat singgah kt Conlay - karaoke dgn kwn2 dia. 1 jam lepas tu dia call me, kata kat ofis pulak.. terbaring sbb sakit dada & kepala. Mcm2 la ko ni, saja nk manja2 n mintak simpati la tu. mmg dia demam, hmpir 2 minggu tk baik2. Sorryla, malas nk layan, cuma aku paksa dia balik umah jugak even dh tengah mlm. 5 minutes to 12.30am i call him, dia dh selamat smpai umah.

Byk pengajaran yg aku dpt bila accident ni:

a) Kasih sayang tanpa batasan, w'pun berbeza adat & budaya

b) i'll call 'Ah Chai' Bengkel KLM, Kelana Jaya (kalau xcident lagi.. nauzubillah!)

c) Kekecewaan, sympathy & empathy - buat aku lebih keras hati..huhu.

d) Sabar, yakin & tawakal kepada Allah

e) kawan menangis susah dicari, kawan ketawa.. hmm.. mmg la ramai!!

Gelap Tapi Terang

Hari2 yang gelap kini kembali ceria...
sangat tension semlm dgn prangai 'Mem Besar' kt ofis ni, smuanya nk cepat , kelam kabut. letih aku dibuatnya... tak pasal2 aku menangis mengenangkan nasib diri di rantauan. penat2 perah otak prepare document, bos yg dpt nama.. huh! tkpela.. demi mencari rezeki yg halal, aku ikhlas. cuma bengang la, dlm satu masa disuruh buat itu ini, tk menang tangan beb! last2 aku dok tercongok kat ofis sorang2 smpai jam 11 mlm. letih betul...

*malam tadi isra' & mikraj = 27 Rejab 1429H. teringat k.izan pesan Qiamullail, sempat jugak tgh mlm td solat taubat, ishtiharah & hajat. bila angkat tangan nk solat tasbih telefon berbunyi... terus kensel nk buat..hehe..[teruknya aku!] isam call.. ajak dating!

tunggu bagai nak rak, sedih aku.. dh la kita ni penat, tension, nk berehat.. terpaksa tunggu dia pulak. jadi ke tk nk kuar, hmm.. dh setengah jam baru call balik. hampeh je.. nearly 1am kuar ronda2, itu pun dia dh panic sbb aku dh nangis... [bukan mintak simpati n manja2, tapi tk tau la ari ni aku mmg sensitip sangat]. Actually we're both r really busy with our life, but masing2 cuba untuk luangkan masa antara satu sama lain. Sesi luahan perasaan dgn apa yg brlaku hari semlm. He's loving person, even letih..dia sudi mendengar & menasihat. Membebel tu.. mmg la, he's good in P.R. hmm... harap2 bahagia berpanjangan la.

hmm...sakitnya kepala aku ni, nk balik awal n berehatla.. letih semlm tak hilang lagi. aduh...

Kisah aku dan dia

sibukkah aku? hmm... mmg sibuk pun lately ni n kadang2 saja menyibukkan diri. betul kata nina, blog ni umpama diari tentang apa yg kita lakukan seharian. but i can't commit oneself to this blog almost everyday. watever it is, life must go on even its make us crazy!
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biarkanlah saja diriku sendirian tanpamu..
biarkanlah aku merindu sekian lama
bukan maksud untuk membisu, sepi tanpa kata
terpisahnya kita kerana mengejar impian..
Mungkinkan bersama, dua jiwa ini
dalam mencari cinta sejati
Mungkinkah segala derita di jiwa
akan terubat kini.. [Anuar Zain]
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bila dgr lagu mendayu2 & lirik yg cukup menenangkan hati & perasaan ni, buat aku rilex (ceh! romantika di amor la plak). malas nk layan perasaan sangat, even hati ni terlalu ingin mendapatkan dia tapi.. aku mesti teruskan jugak dgn apa yg aku tetapkan dlm hati. Jangan call, no sms to him! that's it! tahap kesabaran pun ada hadnya. bila lelaki tk sedar diri ni, kena beri pengajaran sket. biar MJ rindu, biarkan.. biarkan. (tapi rindukah dia pada aku? perasan btul). even dia pun skrg dgn egonya, lantaklah! mcm bagus sgt! ada hati nk ada gfren smpai 3 @ 4 orang tapi tk reti nk beri komitmen atas tanggungjwb yg sedia ada. aku mmg cukup bengang dgn lelaki2 yg mcm ni. malas nk layan dia lagi, biarlah si luncai terjun dgn labu-labunya.. biarkan.. biarkan. aku doakan smoga Allah akan beri petunjuk pada MJ utk berubah ke arah yg lebih baik, amin.
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i'm all out of love,
I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I 'm all out of love
what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong...[Air Supply]
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whenever we had dating, this song will automatically played in the car. i really love this song n him too. wat special about isam? he's caring, responsible, gorgeous, sumtimes moody (made me piss-off him sumtimes), good advisor, smart, ambitious n romantic. its almost 2 months now n we already known each other, keep on story about our childhood & ourselves. i didn't put much hoping on him, but i'm happy n grateful dat i met my mr right again (after my xbfren spore). he likes domino, i'm crazy about chess. but we still have sumtin dat we could share together -- kaki makan!!! haha... we could drive all da way to Klang, just for seafood. anyway, we both trying our best to accomplished each other.

Itu Kamu

Segala yang ku pasti akan aku capai tuk mengambil hati mu
Melepasi angkasa cinta ku
Sesudah aku melafazkan kesemua yang diperlu
Ianya seperti suluhan yang terang

Segala yang kau ragui akan ku padam habis dari hati mu
Mengingkari dalaman akal mu
Takkan puasku, mengiringi semua tawa dan tangisanmu,
Anggun jiwamu, pelita yg terang

Hatiku mahumu
Rupamu
Masih masih masih masih…

Chorus)
Kau terindah
Masih ada
Yang tercantik
Itu Kamu

Tiada mengapa taupun sampai bila kerna cinta enggan kenal mengalah
Memanah masuk hatiku yang reti
Setelah kau nampak tetap ku masih menunjukkan erti hidupku
Yang mahu bersama kau buat selamanya…

[song by Estranged]

Quote of the day

"When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us."

[Alexander Graham Bell]

Aku Punya Kamu

Saat kau tersenyum
Saat itu kau memberi
Saat ku rasa bahgia

hmm..
Selama ku tersenyum
Selama itu ku memberi
Selama yang kamu di sini

Namun ku bicara hanya pada
Bulan dan suria
Tak ku punya cara
Untuk menyatakan cinta

Dan kamu
Hanyalah satu
Ku mahu ada kamu saja
Bisaku menunggumu
Selamanya aku milikmu
Takkan pernah lelahku menunggu
Hingga aku punya kamu.. yea

Sesaat aku tiada
Saat itu yang ku rasa
Saat hidupku terlena

emm..
Selama yang kau ada
Selama itu ku rasa
Selama hidupku bahgia

Namun ku bicara hanya pada
Bulan dan suria
Tak ku punya cara
Untuk menyatakan cinta

Dan kamu
Hanyalah satu
Ku mahu ada kamu saja
Bisaku menunggumu
Selamanya aku milikmu
Takkan pernah lelahku menunggu
Hingga aku punya kamu

Selama yang pernah
Ku merasa belum ada rasa yang ku rasa ini
Fahamilah cinta ku lebih dari cinta
Tiada mungkin aku kan teruja
Andai bukan kamu yang dihadapanku
Bisaku buktikan pada kamu….

Yang kamu hanyalah satu
Dan tak pernah lelah ku menunggumu
Hingga aku punya kamu

[song by Faizal Tahir]

Meaningful..

LOVE ~ "u can break LOVE, but it won't die"

FORGIVENESS ~ "no matter what people done to me, i'll FORGIVE them"

LOVE and FORGIVENESS

How can these two words, love and forgiveness change your whole perspective on life? First, you must put your trust in something bigger than yourself. You may call it God, Spirit, Budda, whatever your faith is, trust that it has a bigger plan (could it be a lesson in forgiveness?) than your everyday troubles. What is the most important lesson you can learn while here on earth? Love and Forgiveness. But how do you get to the Love part if you have hatred in your heart? Forgive. It sounds so simple and yet it can be the most difficult thing that you can do in this lifetime.

You were wronged or someone betrayed you, how can you let that go? Forgive. Forgive and it will set your heart free. Here are some steps that can get you there. Feel your anger, feel your sadness, feel whatever it is you need to get all those emotions out, write it down and then throw it away. Give yourself a certain timeframe in which you will no longer continue to go on with those emotions. Now comes the hard part, trying to convince yourself that the other person deserves to be forgiven. Every time this hurt comes into your heart, say to yourself "I forgive "name" for what they have done". Every time you start to go over the scenario, and start to get angry or sad, instead replace it with "I forgive "name" for what they have done". You might not believe what you are saying at first. But sending that message out into the universe will eventually help break the chain of black energy that links you together with an invisible line of hate.

Hopefully it will hit you one day. You can let it go, the hate, the anger, the betrayal, how you were wronged and in a peaceful loving moment truly feel that forgiveness. The best possible way to break the chain of hate that connects you by an invisible link, is to stand and face this person and truly believing and feeling in your heart what you are about to say to them. "No matter what you have done to me, I forgive you" It is truly disarming, and can break that link that binds you. That's it! It may be a long and hard task to get to that one simple line.

What does it feel like? Once you have set each other free, your heart feels lighter, you have an overwhelming feeling of peace. You suddenly understand it all, the reason you are here, the lessons that you need to learn while on this earth plane. You will never be the same, because in every situation you can begin to feel compassion, humility and gratitude toward your fellow travelers here on earth. You can LOVE again. You are a radiant being moving forward in life.

Perihal Wanita..

Cantik itu penting tetapi tidak usah terlalu dipentingkan. Ada orang hingga tidak sanggup keluar dari rumah kerana merasakan dirinya tidak cantik. Bagi wanita kecantikan adalah syarat hidup sempurna, sebenarnya bagi lelaki wanita cantik bukan syarat kebahagiaan.

Lelaki yang mudah terpegun dengan kecantikan selalunya tidak setia. Apabila pasangannya mula kelihatan hodoh, dia mudah terkalih perasaan. Tika itu dia mungkin merasakan cintanya telah tawar dan hanya manis kembali tatkala melihat wanita-wanita cantik di sekelilingnya.

Tidak usah perangkap lelaki dengan kecantikan anda yang palsu. Ramai wanita menghiasi wajahnya terlalu hingga memangsakan ramai lelaki tetapi kemudian ditinggalkan setelah wajah sebenar terserlah. Sudah tentu anda tidak mampu bersolek tebal 24 jam. Tapi itulah yang anda lakukan tatkala di alam percintaan. Tiba-tiba suami anda terkejut melihat anda tidaklah secantik sewaktu di alam percintaan dahulu. Tanpa mekap wajah anda biasa saja.

Kajian saya mendapati segelintir lelaki rasa tertipu pada hari kedua perkahwinannya. Pada hari kedua dia sudah dapat melihat wajah sebenar isterinya, yang selama ini ditopengi mekap tebal ‘sepuluh inci’.

Kecantikan dan bercantik-cantik itu memang penting, tapi tak usah hingga menenggelamkan wajah anda yang sebenar. Anda tentu tidak mahu orang menggagumi anda hari ini dan esok melupakannya. Berhiaslah seadanya untuk mencerlahkan keserian wajah.

Wajah yang berseri lebih berkesan daripada wajah ‘buatan’ yang kelihatan cantik sangat. Wajah yang berseri cukup dengan mekap seadanya.

Kecantikan umpama kereta. Ketika baru dibeli, rekabentuk dan warnanya memukau. Barunya harum dan seronok dipandu. Semakin lama semakin hilang serinya. Jika harganya mahal orang masih terliur melihat reka bentuknya walaupun warnanya telah mula kedam dan berdebu. Lama-lama ia tidak dipedulikan lagi kerana model-model baru sentiasa keluar dan kecantikan model-model baru ini sentiasa mengatasi.

Orang yang dahulunya membeli kereta berkenaan kerana cantik kini mula berfikir untuk menukarkannya. Persoalan cantik tidak akan ada kesudahan. Yang betul, membeli untuk kegunaan dan kekal sayang meskipun sudah ketinggalan zaman.

Jika anda tidak cantik, tak usah bersusah hati sebab tidak semua lelaki mementingkan kecantikan wajah sebagai syarat berteman. Ada lelaki yang tidak kisah sama ada cantik atau tidak asalkan hatinya berkenan, bersumberkan keikhlasan, budi pekerti serta pegangan agama yang mantap.

Lelaki yang benar-benar impikan kebahagiaan lebih mementingkan keperibadian daripada kecantikan, apalagi kecantikan luaran yang sengaja dibina untuk memukau. Kerana dia tahu kecantikan itu tidak kekal. Evolusi usia akan mengubahnya. Kecintaan yang dipahatkan oleh tautan hati yang jujur lagi ikhlas menjamin kehidupan sejahtera hingga ke penyudah.

Sebaliknya, kecantikan yang terlalu diada-adakan, akan berakhir dengan pertingkahan apabila kecantikan sudah tidak dapat dipermodalkan. Tiada manusia boleh kekal cantik dan tiada manusia boleh kekal muda. Tiba masanya kecantikan akan hilang dan muda bertukar tua.

Jika anda merasakan kurang cantik, ketahuilah itu hanya persepsi anda sahaja. Ukuran cantik tidak pernah sama antara seorang dengan seorang yang lain. Lihatlah orang yang kita rasakan langsung tidak cantik, kadang-kadang jodohnya dengan orang handsome; hingga kita berkata dalam hati, ˜Buta ke dia?

Hiasi diri anda dengan keperibadian mulia, itu lebih utama untuk seorang wanita; hiasi juga wajah anda seadanya, sebab itu lumrahnya wanita. Usah terlalu merawat wajah nanti anda hilang identiti diri. Hargai diri kerana andalah satu-satunya; tiada duanya dan tiada tiganya. Hanya anda!

[Motivasi dari. Hm Tuah Iskandar]

Mutiara kata

“Berlarilah terus hingga ke garisan penamat, sebab perlumbaan yang tidak sampai ke garisan penamat tidak pernah selesai.”

“Biar pendiam tapi berisi, daripada bising menyusahkan orang; biar banyak ingatkan mati, daripada hidup bagaikan arang.”

“Pengetahuan adalah teman anda yang terbaik. Ia sentiasa mengikut anda ke mana pun anda pergi. Tatkala semua orang menolak anda, pengetahuan tetap membisikkan sesuatu yang berharga.”

“Jadilah orang cerdik supaya senang hidup tapi kalau dah terlalu senang selalu jadi tak cerdik.”

“Tupai kalau tak pernah jatuh ke tanah kira memang pandai, tapi bila jatuh itu tentu terlebih pandai.”

“Jika anda mengaku orang jadilah orang, jangan jadi orang-orang.”

“Usah mimpi menakluk bintang kalau bulan pun tak kelihatan.”

“Orang yang banyak duit selalunya tak bawa duit dalam poket tapi kadang-kadang orang yang tak bawa duit dalam poket sebab memang tak berduit.”

“Jika anda diperdaya orang, itu tandanya anda baik, sebab orang jahat tak akan pilih orang jahat untuk diperdayakan.”

“Belumlah seseorang itu layak digelar pendekar selagi dia belum berjuang.”

“Jangan takut terlambat. Yang paling bahaya adalah berhenti dan langsung tak bertindak.”

“Apa nak takut dengan madu, masuk ke perut jadi ubat; tapi takutilah lebah, kalau menyerang boleh padam.”

“Kaya bukan tiket hidup bahagia tapi kalau tak kaya kembarnya derita.”

“Paling indah hidup apabila kita mendapat semua yang kita inginkan, tapi paling tak indah bila dah dapat itulah punca masalah hidup kita.”

“Nak pandai belajarlah, tapi kalau nak memandai-mandai tak payah tunggu pandai.” –

”Sembahyang itu ketenangan. Ketenangan benihnya kepintaran, kepintaran itu jawapnya kecemerlangan. ”

“Manusia takut pada hantu tapi tak takut berperangai macam hantu.”

“Bukan semua yang menggembirakan hati kita baik untuk kita. Kadang-kadang yang menggembirakan itu tersembunyi derita. Dan bukan semua yang memualkan hati kita tidak baik untuk kita. Kadang-kadang di situlah letaknya bahagia.”

---------------------------------- DR. HM TUAH ISKANDAR al-Haj

Marahkan siapa?

hmm..setiap kali rasa tak puas hati, bengangn, mesti perasaan MARAH menguasai diri (naik hantu, menengking, maki hamun). Ini ke sifat lelaki yang gentlemen? perempuan lain la.. memang dah ada sifat membebel << jgn tipu la kalau kata takde.
apa perasaan orang yg kena marah? bengang...(sudah semestinya), menyampah (memang patut pun..) sakit hati (org giler yg tkde perasaan je senyap) sedih (hanya Tuhan saja yg tahu..uhuk..uhuk).
tapi aku tetap bersabar.. ini baru kali ke-2, takpe.. cukup 3 kali... SELAMAT TINGGAL ROMEO!!! get lost!huhu... (garangnya..)
[Moral of the story: Jangan cepat marah, nanti cepat tua, gfren lari... padan muka!]

all about ANGER

Anger Management

The goal of anger management is to reduce both your emotional feelings and the physiological arousal that anger causes. You can't get rid of, or avoid, the things or the people that enrage you, nor can you change them, but you can learn to control your reactions.

Anger Management

The goal of anger management is to reduce both your emotional feelings and the physiological arousal that anger causes. You can't get rid of, or avoid, the things or the people that enrage you, nor can you change them, but you can learn to control your reactions.



Strategies To Keep Anger At Bay

Relaxation

Simple relaxation tools, such as deep breathing and relaxing imagery, can help calm down angry feelings. There are books and courses that can teach you relaxation techniques, and once you learn the techniques, you can call upon them in any situation. If you are involved in a relationship where both partners are hot-tempered, it might be a good idea for both of you to learn these techniques.

Some simple steps you can try:

Breathe deeply, from your diaphragm; breathing from your chest won't relax you. Picture your breath coming up from your "gut."

Slowly repeat a calm word or phrase such as "relax," "take it easy." Repeat it to yourself while breathing deeply.

Use imagery; visualize a relaxing experience, from either your memory or your imagination.

Nonstrenuous, slow yoga-like exercises can relax your muscles and make you feel much calmer.
Practice these techniques daily. Learn to use them automatically when you're in a tense situation.

Recent activities

Karnival Sukan Staf [10 - 25 May 2008]
Ntah mcm mana bro Rosli dpt tau me aktif kat Jb dulu (Xtreme Club Staf & Chess Club), so aku pun terjebak sama AJK Kecil Teknikal kt KL ni. Preparation mcm nk mampos! selisih faham tu biasala...heheh. Tapi alhamdulillah, semuanya berjalan dengan lancar. Spirit of Semarak <<>P.Ramlee The Musical [June 2008]
suppose dat day i ada date dgn J, tapi suddenly dpt sms dr Janet pasal tiket free P.Ramlee The Musical. Apa... lagi! better i go n watch teater.. i like!heheh. Ajak my hsemate (mar), dressing kena ala2 jambu gitu sbb kat Istana Budaya, tak pasal2 kena halau kalau pakai tak senonoh. Sambil menunggu tiket malam tu, nmpak la orang2 yg dikenali sekitar malaya - Imran Ajmain, Mak Mah & Adlin, Datuk CT Nurhaliza & Dato' K, Datuk Sharifah Aini, Datuk Noraini (politician), Datin Tiara & hubby and YAMulia Sultan Perlis & Permaisuri (our recent Agong). Apa yg menarik pasal teater ni? hmm.. boleh la aku beri 3 bintang sebab props, dancers & musical arrangement. Ada jugak gangguan teknikal, tapi dpt diatasi dengan cepat. Musly Ramlee <>Rakaman "Konsert Fenomena" Anuar Zain & Ziana Zain
Seminggu selepas tengok teater muzikal P.Ramlee, Janet ajak pi tengok rakaman show Hari Raya Anuar Z & Ziana Z. sanggup aku naik lrt & komuter jmpa diaorg kat Angkasapuri. Yg paling poyo nya.. bila kami semua naik atas pentas duduk kat depan band & dpt tengok Anuar & Ziana lebih dekat..hehe. Gila glamour betul! kalau korang tk caya, tengok tv nanti masa Hari Raya bulan Oktober 2008 nanti - RTM. ada jugak masuk paper bulan lepas, tapi nasib baik muka me diselindung oleh badan anuar. if not........mampuih!!! Bak kata acik, jgn tak interprame... biar poyo sket!! hehe.

Bukan Diriku

Setelah kupahami
Ku bukan yang terbaik
Yang ada di hatimu

Tak dapat kusangsikan
Ternyata dirinyalah
Yang mengerti kamu
Bukanlah diriku

Kini maafkanlah aku
Bila ku menjadi bisu
Kepada dirimu

Bukan santunku terbungkam
Hanya hatiku berbatas
Tuk mengerti kamu
Maafkanlah aku

Walau kumasih mencintaimu
Kuharus meninggalkanmu
Kuharus melupakanmu
Meski hatiku menyayangimu
Nurani membutuhkanmu
Kuharus merelakanmu

Dan hanyalah dirimu
Yang mampu memahamiku
Yang dapat mengerti aku

Ternyata dirinyalah
Yang sanggup menyanjungmu
Yang lama menyentuhmu
Bukanlah diriku

[song by samson]

Kehadiran 2008...penuh makna!

Menginjak di awal tahun 2008; masih lagi meneruskan sisa-sisa hidupku dengan tenang, aman & semangat baru. Kehidupan yang lebih baik dan sempurna; mematangkan fikiran & penuh dengan kasih sayang yang aku pun tak tau bila kesudahannya. Sebagai manusia dan hamba Allah, aku sentiasa berserah kepada ALLAH dan redha dengan segala apa yang berlaku.
Kerjaya semakin sibuk, bos hantar me pegi 'misi selamatkan dunia' ke sarawak lagi..hehe. Seminggu marketing kat sana, naik muak makan seafood, manok & kek batik sarawak. I'm really happy of wat i'm doing for Uni & especially bantu rakan2 lain. Patrick always b there for me, bawak jalan2. Thanks bro! Keje2 mengarut yg aku tk prnah buat di JB: offer diri untuk join & hadir perhimpunan Maulud Nabi dan sambutan Hari Pekerja di stadium Putra Bukit Jalil tahun ni banyak memberi kesedaran & ukhwah antara satu sama lain. Setelah hampir 8 tahun aku bekerja, tanggal 15 Mei 2008 aku menerima Anugerah Khidmat Cemerlang. Alhamdulillah.. Rata2 bila jumpa kawan2 di PSM, Skudai ucapkan "tahniah! berbaloi dengan usaha ko selama ni akhirnya Uni beri pengiktirafan. Sepatutnya sejak 6 tahun dulu ko dapat anugerah tiap2 tahun". aku sengih je la.. bukannya berbangga tapi mereka2 sendiri sedia maklum, markah skt aku tiap2 tahun memang tk prnah below 88, mesti up nya! apa resipi hingga aku berjaya mendapat markah tinggi? keje mesti ikhlas, jujur, amanah, tekun, tidak merungut, kerjasama & hormat antara satu sama lain & yang penting: jangan bodek bos!! i'm happy to be myself, tak pernah hipokrit. Biar satu ofis tau aku ni brutal, tegas, sopan bertempat, berani dgn keputusan yg aku buat, setiap kerja yg dimulakan mesti diselesaikan dgn kadar segera << ini lah diri aku yg sebenarnya. Semoga dengan duit gaji (rezeki halal) yg aku dapat tiap2 bulan, berbaloi dengan usaha aku selama ni.
Kisah cinta yg penuh dramatis & kadang2 mengundang kontrovesi; especially wit Adnan Kamal -- kita tiada jodoh tapi dengan takdir Allah kita dipertemukan semula dengan suasana yg penuh emosi (huhu... syahdu). Semoga kasih sayang yg terbit kembali baru2 ni akan ke arah kehidupan yang lebih baik & demi kerana Allah, sanggup aku memimpinnya ke arah kebaikan dan menjadi hamba ALLAH yang saudara 'baru' seislam. Lain-lain love story; sakit ati kalau layan perangai lelaki yang tak sedar diri, dah la berkahwin tapi ada hajat nk gfren ramai (pantang atok nenek moyang aku!). Niat aku baik untuk beri kesedaran, nasihat tapi masih lagi dengan perangai buruk. kalau sekali, takpela.. kali kedua aku bleh sabar. Masuk kali ketiga, boleh BLAH! lantak kau la nak jadi apa, if nk tambah dosa banyak, jangan aku pun dapat tempiasnya.
Kasih sayang yang baru bermula (4 bulan yg lalu) dengan jejaka dari iraq - Esam Abd Rashid (thru internet u...hehe). Setelah mengenalinya lebih 3 bulan, barula masing2 beri number telefon. Dating 3 kali cukup membuatkan masing2 resah dan bila tak jumpa mesti gelisah n macam2 la mesej @ sms mengarut dapat. Sehingga hari lahirnya pada 24 Jun yang lepas, aku konpius tk tau nk belikan apa, ronda 360 darjah kat KLCC, last2 tiba di "ROOM" aku belikan 'domino' kegemarannya. "the sweetest present i had, is ur domino. Thanks dear". Esam ni aktiviti dia skrg dgn rakan2 senegara - main domino & football. Musim EURO 2008, memang betul2 mencabar sbb aku sibuk dgn kerja & malam dia sibuk tgk bola dgn kawan2. Kami tak ada masa dating, cuma sms & call je yg dpt mengeratkan kami. Dua hari lepas dia sejujur-jujurnya menerangkan & mengaku tentang dirinya yang sebenar. Tiada rahsia antara kami berdua. Hmm.. aku pulak dah kalut sebab Adnan Kamal seperti ingin kembali sedangkan aku dan esam? kalut di fikiran pulak..
[Munajat doa yang berpanjangan kepada Allah SWT semoga hati ini sabar & tenang selalu, perjalanan hidupku yang gembira, jodoh dengan lelaki yang sempurna & bertanggungjawab, dijauhi dari perbuatan dan dengki khianat manusia lain serta rezeki yang melimpah ruah. Amin..]

Kekasih Gelapku

Ku mencintaimu lebih dari apa pun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

Kutahu kutakkan slalu ada untukmu
Disaat engkau merindukan diriku
Kutahu kutakkan bisa memberikanmu waktu
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku
Yang kucari selama ini
Dalam hidupku
Dan hanya padamu kuberikan sisa cintaku
Yang panjang dalam hidupku

Ku mencintaimu lebih dari apa pun
Meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
Ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
Meskipun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku

[song by UNGU]

I'm Yours

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love
Listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing
We're just one big family
And it's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scat

Well I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
My breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I've been saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours

There's no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

[song by JASON MRAZ]

To Love You More

Take me back in the arms i love
Need me like u did before
Touch me once again
And remember when
There was no one that u wanted more
Don't go u know u will break my heart
She won't love u like i will
I'm the one who'll stay
When she walks away
And u know i'll be standing here still
(chorus)
I'll be waiting for u
Here inside my heart
I'm the one who wants to love u more
U will see i can give u
Everything u need
Let me be the one to love u more..

See me as if u never knew
Hold me so u can't let go
Just believe in me
I will make u see
All the things that ur heart needs to know

*repeat chorus

And some way all the love that we had can be saved
Whatever it takes we'll find a way...

Andai ku tahu [UNGU]

andai ku tahu
kapan tiba ajalku
ku akan memohon
Tuhan tolong panjangkan umurku

andai ku tahu
kapan tiba masaku
ku akan memohon
Tuhan jangan Kau ambil nyawaku

chorus:
aku takut
akan semua dosa-dosaku
aku takut
dosa yang terus membayangiku

andai ku tahu
malaikatMu kan menjemputku
izinkan aku
mengucap kata taubat padaMu..

chorus

ampuni aku
dari segala dosa-dosaku
ampuni aku
menangis ku bertaubat padaMu

aku manusia
yang takut neraka.
namun aku juga
tak pantas di surga

andai ku tahu
kapan tiba ajalku
izinkan aku
mengucap kata taubat padaMu

What is LOVE?

Love is a shy smile,
a sweet hello,
a soft caress...

Love is two hands entwined,
a lingering kiss,
a swelling of the heart...

Love is undeniable,
unforgettable,
unimaginable,
and what every heart yearns for...

Its been a while...

Its been a while i didn't type anything here.. bukannya lari dari kenyataan, bukannya berjauh hati, membawa diri.. hanya perlukan masa untuk bangkit berdiri teguh di alam realiti.

Stories of Year 2007
Sweet memories more than bad things happen to me. Alhamdulillah.. kehidupan bermula di sini.. (end of August 2006 moved to KL - seronoknya!!! tapi membosankan...huhu. Nak tau kenapa? sebab mostly every month masa tinggal kat Skudai dulu, aku slalu turun KL [shopping, jmpa kawan2]. Sekarang ni.. for sure la better stay at home. Rumah pun dekat dgn KLCC, Ampang Park. Naik muak naik lrt ulang alik. Tempat keje pun dekat, kalau jalan kaki cuma 7 minit. Selalu jugak menghabiskan masa kat gym & jog di Titiwangsa dgn Azroel & Atiey.
Hsemate semua ok, kepala pun boleh layan.. 5 orang serumah masih lagi membingitkan. Apartment aras 2, dh cukup mengah naik tangga (bawah blok me kedai runcit & internet cafe, mmg best!). Aku hias rumah tu dgn banyak menda (mostly IKEA design ler..hehe). Bilik tidur yg lebih selesa n katil yg cukup besar utk aku bergolek2..hahaha. Yg penting - wardrobe beb! mesti ada 3 buah utk membezakan baju2 kurung, social occasions & t-shirts. Mana bleh campur, mesti aku kelam kabut nk cari. Meja solek yg cukup besar n puas ati la kalau nk berangan..hehe.
Love stories me hebat! di kala aku kesepian, ramai lelaki yg datang dalam hidup [E.J (PTD), Adnan Kamal (Lawyer), Mike (Insurance), Simo (Morroco), J (WST)]. Wat really special about them? Masing-masing ada prangai baik hati, humor, kadang2 tu sengal jugak, sentiasa ada bila diperlukan, caring & loving. Tapi aku kekal baik hingga hari ni cuma dgn Mike & J je, mungkin sebab both of us ada chemistry & kekuatan diri yg kami masing2 perlukan antara satu sama lain. Adatla pasang surut kisah percintaan ni. Tapi aku percaya .. andai ada jodoh, insyaAllah.. tak ke mana.
Since i've been here in KL, i'm busy wit marketing & admin. Outstation satu malaya..huhu. Akhirnya satu Malaysia ni aku dh takluk! First time jelajah negeri Sarawak : Kuching, Serian, Sri Aman, Sarikei, Miri & Sibu. Negeri di bawah bayu: Kota Kinabalu & Sandakan. "Jalan-jalan cari makan!" banyak pengalaman berjumpa dengan orang2 sana [patrick - thnx bawak i ronda2]. Culture yg berbeza & of course la ada few dishes yg aku mmg tk bleh nk makan. Ada seronoknya juga sbb banyak makan seafood..hehe, Even keje yang bertambah, alhamdulillah.. lebih banyak mendamaikan hati & perasaan.
Life in KL: lepak dgn rakan2 seangkatan zaman di Uni (1994-1997), selalu jugak hang out (Qba) wit Nina & Lela. Sumtimes join Suya (nina sista) & Janet. If i'm with mike, slalu lepak kat HRC. Kalau dgn J - karaoke la tmpt kami bergaduh suara..hehe (mcm katak kembung bunyi ada la..!).

Anyway, i'm still alive.. even jauh dari family, aku akan sentiasa call & sms mommy & adik beradik. If dad sakit, mesti amik cuti 1 minggu (itu janji bos kat aku). Benar-benar bersyukur dengan kehidupan yang lebih baik, mendamaikan & menggembirakan.. alhamdulillah.